babyell

And nothing helps.

I have had a tattoo done with his name, put up our xmas tree to try and cheer us up, planted a tree in our garden. I miss him so much, I just want to be pregnant, to feel his little kicks and wriggles. Is a week after giving birth too early to have sex? I just want to try again, I know being pregnant wont replace Harry, but it will ease the pain of losing him. Can't face people yet. Have been hiding away at home. Work have given me a month off, and although I dont want to sit at home on my own, I cant face them all yet. Feel like a shell with nothing inside. I know it will take ages to get pregnant again, it only took one cycle after having implant removed before. But now I want it sooooo much I know every months AF vist will be more heartache. I dont know what to do with myself.

serina27

sorry for your loss ...I would wait till u get your 1st AF ...but its completley upto you xx

missmurder

I'm so sorry hun. A tattoo with his name is a lovely thing to do I think I don't know if a week after is too soon to start trying again, did your doctor give you any advice about it? As you said of course being pregnant won't replace Harry but trying to get pregnant again will hopefully give you something positive to focus on xo

Coffee

The only advice i can give you is just do whatever feels right. The first few weeks are such a mixture of emotions and you sort of have to learn how to deal with the grief. Just take each day at a time and do whatever you have to do to get through that day. Try not to look too far ahead and give yourself time to go through all the different emotions.
On the TTC front... I'm sure every person who is unfortunately a member of this section all came away from hospital feeling like they wanted to ttc straight away. It's just the natural thing to feel as your body is still full of all those hormones and is screaming out for a baby. It's just so very very hard to deal with. I'd speak to your dr about when you are OK to start ttc again. You have to give your body a little time to recover - the thing that stopped me in those first few weeks was the thought of getting pg again and then losing the baby as my body wasn't ready to deal with another pg so soon.
Take care

meldmac

I was the same way. In fact the day after I lost Devin I knew I wanted to be pregnant again right away. Of course never to replace Devin but I had empty arm syndrome bad. However, I waited until my doctor gave me the green light as I didn't want to chance trying to soon and having something bad happen. It took me 4 cycles to get pg again and in the end I'm really glad I let my body heal before I got pregnant again. No matter what you decide it will be what's right for you. I think though it's a good idea to talk to your dr first to see what he/she thinks.

Nosy_Cow

I think most angel mummy's know the feeling of wanting to start trying start away! We were told to wait 12 weeks before trying again to get my body back to normal. We didn't however start using protection. We just carried on like we would normally do (no protection) and said if it happens it happens. It's been 15 weeks and 5 days since Chloe was born and still no positive test. Periods are still hard to deal with - I cry every time one shows up! I've had 3 so far and I'm hoping there won't be a number 4. Take your time though sweetheart. Let your body heal first. You don't want to conceive straight away and then find out something is wrong. The days will feel easier as time goes on. The pain for me has never gone away and I don't think ever will but the days are easier.

babyell

Thanks girls, it is so hard. I keep crying all the time, and I dont want to do anything or see anyone. Hubby just rang, but I couldnt find any words to say to him, just sat there holding the phone. I want to look forward to xmas for my 2 girls, but it is so hard. It's my daughters birthday in a few weeks and she will be having a party, i dont want to ruin it for her, but I dont think I have the strength to put on a brave face with everyone. Just been sat in Harrys room that is now empty with just a chair, looking in his box with scan pics etc. I know the more I look the worse I will get, but I cant help looking at them. Then the regrets start, wish I had had a photo of my bump before I had him, wish I had looked at him properly instead of just his face, wish I had touched his skin, and given him a kiss, wish i had a photo of him with his mougth closed. On the photos we have he looks in pain with his mouth open and his eyes look like he was in pain. I then think why didnt I notice something sooner, how long did he suffer with the cord around his neck, was it weeks, or a matter of minutes/hours. I feel like I am driving myself insane. All I can think about is Harry and being pregnant, everything else doesnt seem to matter. It takes all my strength to talk to people, housework has been left, been living off takeaways for a week. Keep shouting at my kids when they are naughty. Just feel so numb. when does it get better.

wldgreen

I am sorry for your loss. I would ask the advice of your doctor. I was told 3-4 weeks after we delivered our baby girl. My doctor recommended not trying for two months to get my af regular again. I think it would be a good idea to ask your doctor!