I apologise now for the tone of this lol. I am feeling utterly wretched the last couple of days. I was doing fine by myself and actually felt better than I had in a while. Then James got sick and it really hit me how alone I really am. He started throwing up early hours of Friday morning and by Friday lunchtime I was feeling really sick too and had an upset stomach. And of course I had to look after him regardless and fight to get fluids into him and panic about needing to take him to hospital. Luckily he is doing a little better now and I am no longer feeling sick but have a damn chest infection! But since Friday I have just been feeling so alone and down and close to tears alot. I think its probably just cos I' not feeling brilliant but I hate feeling like this. I'm normally such a strong person and I hate feeling vulnerable I just feel like its about time I got my break in life (have had a pretty rough 18 years but won't go into details cos it would shock alot of you) and its starting to get me down that the break just doesn't seem to be anywhere in sight.

Anyway will stop being all melancholy and stupid lol.

Awww Honey! Im so sorry! Keep your chin up! If you ever want anyone to talk to Im here anytime! (I had a self pitty day today to, so I understand) There is always a light at the end of the tunnel! Like I said keep your chin up!

Thanks hun x guess it was just made worse by being surrounded by happy couples. My brother and his gf were here last night cuddled up on the sofa, my parents are happily married, my sister and her bf were all loved up last night, and my other brother just got engaged. So am definitely the odd one out!

Hugs hun we all have days like this.

Its allowed xxx

There's nothing more horrible than not being well yourself and having to still battle on and look after LO. It really brings you down when you get better you'll look back at this and wonder what you were on about! But we're all here for you

Try not to let things get you down. Easier to say than do but its impossible to not have these moments, every so often everything gets on top of you and it feels like it'll never get better...but they always do! Hope you're back to your usual self soon enough

Thanks girls. Doesn't help that I've now got to take James to the out of hours dr cos he wont drink and has diahrroea

Awwwk Hope James is ok! And hope you get better soon as well

He is ok. Typically after we got home he took 5oz no troubles.

Yea I def understand where you are coming from! Just keep your chin up and know that one day thats gonna be you all loved up, snuggle up, and happily married one day! it will happen! Just one day at a time is all you can do! Cheer Up buttercup and I hope that your LO is feeling better and you as well! PM me if you need to vent or wanna chat!