Oh my god where do i start?
Well ya all no FOB has got incontact, well i had a right go at hime in the week and havent heard from him since, he txted me todya asking if i had calmed down?!
So anyway he was asking after hollie, and then we were just like txting normally and then he starts......
Asking why i slept with his sort of mate(they were both on same team, and played in the back, FOB is Right back and mate was left back), i did this months before hollie, and i no its stupid but i did it when he was being a prick and slept with his mate then txted him next day and told him!!!
Anyway be asked me tonight why i did it, so told him truth to hurt him, and he said it did and that it still hurts now.
So i went in for the kill and said why you txtin me now, what is wrong with you, isnt your perfect little life running so smoothly for you, or is the man, im sorry the woman your in love with, not making you happy anymore, or you just wanna txt me cos of the csa and dna, well he then kicked off, saying, you dont know anything, you wanna no the fucking truth do you, well do you, do you!!! Yes he said it that many times, so i said go on then....
He said, no im not happy, ever since you told me you was pregant, i've never stopped thinking of you, then when it all kicked off, i wish i was a man, and told her to fuck off, and that its always been you, i was only staying with her cos of (there daughter) and because i took out loans and she controls my money, i tried to forget you, but i was hoping you would try and get incontact and when you did with csa, i had to go to darren and ask to speak to you, i saw hollie and i burst into tears because she is perfect, she looks like me and you, and she is amazing, and i havent stopped thinking about you and her, and you need to hear this I WANT YOU,ITS ALWAYS BEEN YOU, i was a fool, im trying to sort everything out, so i can leave her, im not asking you to be with me, but you need to know this, m taking the dna to prove i am hollie's dad to her, we havent slept together since me and you, i dont fancy her anymore,i've still got the picture of us and i look at them all the time.
I cant speak anymore because i've just told you how i feel, im sorry, but can you tell me, if you want me?
And as i stupid mug that i am, i said, its you, its always been you, and the moment i pressed send, i wanted to take it back, i dont want him knowing how i feel, i even rubbed it in, that i have a date tomorrow and his bestmate is babysitting hollie!!!
His now turned his phone off, so he hasnt got my last txt about it being him?!
God i wish you could recall txts if they havent been delivered!!!
Sorry long rant xxx
