Mendy

Went in for my last IUI, and things are not looking good. RE came in and said DH's count is lower than it's ever been...out of the total 5 million sperm collected, only 1 million were good sperm they could use, so that's what I got....1 million is the lowest they go to do IUI, and anything under 5 million is not a good chance, so I'm on the lower end of a successful pregnancy with IUI.

I'm already not feeling good about this cycle, I mean, I KNOW it only takes one, but it didn't happen when there were 2 million and it didn't happen when there were 3 million, so what makes me think 1 million will do the trick?

If it doesn't happen this time, then we will do in vitro, but it won't be for about another year or two. We just really need to get some $ saved up for it...and I sense a horrible meltdown coming 2 weeks from now...I just FEEL it.

Especially because if it doesn't happen I have to wait a looooonnng time before we even start trying again and before I can start thinking about the possibility of holding my own baby one day.

I can' believe how involved and how emotional this TTC business is....there are days I honestly feel I can't do this any longer.

I know I'm sounding like a little whiner right now, especially because there are others on here who have tried way longer than I, but I can't help it. In a week I will be hitting my 1 year mark of TTC. I surely thought I would've had my first baby by now!

This is just how I'm feeling right now.

NeyNey

Aw honey I'm sorry.
But it's still early days for this cycle. Try not to give up hope until the fat witch sings!

FJL

You're not whinging at all!!! You have every right to feel this way.

I'm sorry that DH's sperm count wasn't very good. Is he on vits/mins to improve fertility?

I know things aren't looking good but its not going to stop me sending you some and to think good, fertile thoughts for you

Do you know prices of IVF in your area should you have to go down that road? Will your insurance cover some of that?

Thinking of you xx

Beckic

Oh sweetheart you are not being a whiner!!! you absolutely have the right to feel like this. I am so so so sorry that the results weren't good.

I really really really hope that it is successful honey - but we will all be here for you you in two weeks time if not (and well everyday in between - but you know what I mean).

Im crossing everything for you.

I cried for three days solid when I hit the 12 year mark - it bloomin hurts.

Bx x x

pixielou

Hi mendy, really hope all goes well for you and keep us all posted!

chefamy1122

oh sweetie I am really sorry his count was so low. Sending loads of and to you.

lonate

Awe Mendy I'm so sorry. I really hope that this one works for you. I just want to give you BIG !!! I know how you feel about this whole TTC thing. I wish I could say something to make you feel better but I know there is nothing I can say. Just know that you aren't alone in this. There are many of us that are going through the same emotions as you.

I am feeling very down right now as well. My 2nd IUI is a BFN (I go for b/w tomorrow for sure) and I bawled all night last night when I got home from work. Also, yesterday I found out my friend is pregnant with #2 after taking her last pack of pills last month. She got pregnant with her 1st child less than a month after getting off the bcp also. I wish I was as lucky as her.

I feel so hopeless sometimes, especially this week. I am going for IUI #3 and we are adding Follistim injections to Femara/Trigger/IUI so we will see. If that IUI is a then I will get a lap next cycle and won't be able to do another IUI until the following cycle.

My fingers are crossed for you sweetie. Feel free to pm me anytime

Mendy

Hi FJL! Yes, I know the price...starts at about $17,000 and my insurance doesn't cover anything, it would all be out of pocket.

He has been taking some vits that are especially designed to improve sperm count, but believe it or not, his count was lower this time. I don't think the vits have anything to do with it, I think they just didn't work for him. I don't get it, because he's not a drinker or smoker, he's not overweight....I guess it's our destiny...

But I really do appreciate all the positive vibes! It only takes one and I want to hang on to that thin thread of hope during my 2ww!

Mendy

Wow, Beckic....you have been trying for 12 years??!!!!! I really can't complain now...I admire women like you that have tried so long and keep on going strong!!!

Mendy

Hey Lonate!
Thanks for the encouraging words...I'm sorry about your BFN....I have had TWO girls that work with me get pregnant in the last 3 weeks. One tried for a month and the other for 2....why can't that be us??!!!

I really do hope your upcoming IUI will be lucky #3 for you...and me as well.
Thanks for all the support!