Dancingkaty1

hi girls...well after a very long & emotional 16mths of ttc this was my 1st round of clomid, 50mg days 2-6...started the cycle so positively, especially when i had the follicule tracking & all was good.....af was due this wed coming & like every mth my spotting has started bang on time, 3 days b4 I just dont see how we can go on like this anymore, i just feel like crying but trying to hold it all in & i dont wanna ruin the weekend. I dont know what else we can do, i was on clomid & epo this cycle, dh has been taking fertile aid 4 men ( has now swapped to wellmans as cheaper!!) we dont go out drinking anymore....i still think the spotting i have & the back ache i get every mth waaayyyy b4 af is due has something to do with me not conceiving...this mth it was 5dpo the backache started....if i got this just b4 af was due i could understand but not even a week after ive ovulated surely this is a sign somethings up????? had all the tests going & progesterone levels seem fine....im sure that the levels are dropping too quickly or something????

dh has been really supportive & said that we should go for iui now.....ive still got another 2 mths of clomid but i dunno if its worth doing?? they said i was ovulating even b4 the clomid....i didnt feel any different while on the clomid so it prob didnt even do anything different to me!! Does anyone think i should take 100mg clomid next mth instead of the 50mg??? & in jan say ive lost that mths clomid & ask 4 that mths prescription?? Im just sooo tired of getting upset like this but i know i dont want to give up, my daughter is nearly 4 & i will try everything to give her a bro or sis

there is an open evening on wed at the fertility center near us which we are going to go to, & have booked a consultation with them on the 14th dec to discuss iui......hopefully we can start in jan, fingers crossed.

xxx

amy_1234

I completly know how you feel, Myself and my other half have had unprotected sex for nearly 4 years now and still nothing, I have had all the tests done and everything came back fine apart from a little endo but doc said it is nothing to worry about and won't stop us from getting pregnant.

So FS started me on 100mg of CLOMID and has given me 6 months worth, I am on my first round at the moment.

I really hope it works for us this time, I am getting to a piont where i can't be around babies i am jelous of my friends who have or are going to have babies, I just cant control my feelings anymore and all people say to you is "you need to relax", how the bloody hell can you relax???? they don't understand. theres my rant over lol just remember that there are lots of women who are going through the same thing as you on this website and its great to talk to people who understand. i wish you all the luck in the world hopefully we will all get our BFP'S intime for x mas xxxxx

MillieMoo

I remember that feeling when i was on the first round of clomid. I was so excited and optimistic about the whole thing. As you can see it didn't work for me on the first cycle either (and 2nd and 3rd) and when AF arrived i was just devastated!! Unfortunatley i have to tell you it doesn't get easier every month either. I still get optimistic and excited every month but i think now i have realised that this isn't the miracle drug i thought it was going to be.

Stay strong as it will happen for you!

BabyChristie

Hi DancingKaty1, I'm so sorry that you are upset and feel like AF is coming. I've just had my first cycle of clomid too without success. I even had lots of symptoms such as sore boobs and nausea which I'd never had before and then AF arrived as normal. It does feel like a miracle drug and it is devestating when it doesn't work.

Have you had tests done to try to work out why you are are spotting and why you get the backache? I don't have spotting but I do get bad lower back / bowel pain up to a week before AF and have just been diagnosed with endometriosis through lap and dye. I have lots other symptoms too like crippling period pains, so it was not a massive surprise but I just wondered if you had been through the various tests to rule things like this out?

There are lots and lots of women that clomid does work for and I hope you can keep positive for your next cycle. I was ovulating fine before too and I thought that the higher 100mg dose was more for women who haven't been ovulating otherwise you run the risk of over-stimulation? I'd be really careful about upping the dose without your doctor approving it.

Before we try IVF I'm thinking of clomid together with IUI but not sure if this is possible so will need to talk to the clinic in 2 weeks' time. Maybe that's something you could consider too?

I don't know whether this has been any help at all, but hopefully you don't feel alone and know that there are other steps to take that might get you your . It's such a painful journey but if AF does come, you might be on the first day of the cycle in which you do conceive so don't give up hope. Lots and lots of

xx

peekaboo

So sorry to hear this Katy. I don't have any experience of clomid so cant offer advice on the dosage, but I wouldnt up the dose without the FS advising you to.

You still have two more cycles of it to go, so don't give up. And perhaps after finding out more about IUI you might find that option is right for you. Wishing you loads of luck. xx

Kiki09

like millie said, its so hard, the first month on clomid I think we put so much faith in that little pill and its heartbreaking when reality kicks you and it has not worked instantly. But dont give up, it does have success stories, I am in the middle of my 3rd cycle and it still has me hoping for a miracle...

Don't give up, it will happen

Dancingkaty1

Thank you all sooo much for your replies.....I would love tests done to see why i am spotting & getting the back ache....but my fs doesnt seem bothered by it at all......i asked her if it was due to levels of progesterone dropping too quickly ( as my doc mentioned it to me) & she said it wouldnt be that....she asked if the nurse said anything about my lining when i had the follicular scanning done this mth & i said no....she said oh just carry on with clomid & see what happens.....i just feel like there is something wrong & im not being listened to properly....last week when the backache started badly i tried to call my fs & ask her why i was getting backache 4/5 dpo ( surely a way of saying implantation is no way possible!!) & once again her secretary was not in office & had an answer phone msg saying she will be bk in office in a weeks time!! hense why i phoned the fertility center around the corner from me.....both me & my dh have agreed if we have to pay 4 treatment now, so be it.....i have found the nhs not very helpful in some respects.....there is just too much waiting around....i started ttc when i just turned 26 & now im nearly 28 & no sign of a BFP & because we have a dd who is 4 i feel like im being pushed to one side & keep being told 'to relax more' and 'it happened then, it will happen again'...i feel like screaming!!!! it only took 6 mths to conceive her.....im now on 16/17 mth of ttc....i never got any spotting or back ache when i was ttc her which i do now....somethings going on inside which is dif from now im sure!!

how do i go about getting tests done for my lining etc??

xx

BabyChristie

I think its a really good idea to go to the private clinic near you, even if it is just to discuss with them what they would do if you were to sign up with them. They may have more answers about the tests you can do to check your lining - as you say, having it tested before ovulation is one thing, but making sure it is still there 10 days later is another. I haven't had something like that myself, but I did have a day 21 progesterone test to check it was high enough - did they do this for you?

You are right to listen to your own body - you know if things have changed since you had your dd. I wish I had persisted with my specialists when I had treatment 5 years ago with my ex-husband. I knew there was something wrong with my periods (pain, etc) but because he was completely infertile and on the surface I looked ok, they wouldn't do a lap or any further investigations. Now I've just found out that I have endo and lots of scarring from having it for ages, so I was right.

Trust your instincts and discuss with them with the new clinic - hopefully they may have some suggestions for you. But remember - don't lost hope in the meantime. One more clomid cycle might be all you need.

xx

Dancingkaty1

thanks babychristie...you are so sweet & have cheered me up today i know i should try & feel positive about the clomid, hopefully it will work still & i will get my BFP in dec....it will be boxing day!! I had the day3 & 21 bloods done in jan & aug, both were fine....when i phoned my doc last week about them he said the results were fine but maybe speak to my fs about the levels dropping too quickly.....he said there is no question that i am not ov as i am .....ive had a hycosy done & lots of scans, internal & out......if i had endometriosis would it have shown up on these tests?? xx

nicola123

Hey Dancingkaty1, I know exactly how you feel - clomid 50mg CD2-6 didn't work for me either and like you I was so positive when I started taking the tablets and even has a little worry that it might be twins - I feel really stupid about that now!

Well I'm on CD3 today so second tablet of clomid, I'm no where near as positive as I was last cycle but I do still desperately hope it will result in a BFP this month.

I'm exactly like you I work out in advance when I would find out if it is a BFP and mine is Dec 23rd. Tons of babydust to both of us.