Bec

You're incredibly brave, and a solid, loving couple like you two deserve to have your little baby ..... I know others have said it .. but TRY to relax a bit more .... so many women have told stories of how they went on holiday .. or had a break from TTC and then got their BFPs (I too am trying to follow that advice!)...

Sending you loads of hugs and baby dust ... I'll give you my share too ...... you deserve it more than me at this point hon ...

KX

Nicola I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

I think they should routinely check women for the strep b virus as soo many are unknown carriers, but they don't do it.

I wish you all the luck in the world ttc, and Ben's story is an inspiration

ElliesMum

Thank you all so much for your support. Being able to come on here helps so much. I'm having a bad day today. My cousin has just had a baby girl and all the family are rushing round buying presents for her. I feel so guilty but i just cant do it. I cant even go near the baby clothes in a shop (especially the girls section) let alone buy them for somebody else. I feel that i should be buying for Ellie. My mum has said she will get me something though so that has helped. AF got me yesterday too (two days early, 25 day cycle this month) which was a bit of a shock. I had really convinced myself i was pg this month. I had all the symptoms (probably just imagined them though). I am so dreading christmas. I was so excited this time last year, thinking how it was going to be so different this year. We were so looking forward to having Ellie with us spending her first christmas this year. The worse thing is as soon as christmas is out of the way, we have Ellie's anniversay on 6th Jan. I dont know how much more i can take, i want to curl up and sleep and not wake up. So sorry for going on but i need some advice if anyone has any?

Wobbles

Oh hun

It must be so hard for you right now & I don't think any advice will help - you have every right to greive & feel as you do & your strenght as a person & as a couple (I hope) will see you both through this year. I do hope as time goes on it becomes a little easier yet not forgotten.

The love you hold for Ellie will be felt & I'm sure shes watching over you hun wanting her Mummy to be happy but never forget her which I know you couldn't possibily do.

Its so hard to type words on a keyboard & show what you mean so I do hope you understand my reply.

Spunky Cupkake

aww hun i sympathise with you really i do i lost a 2 yr old bk in 2003 and then 6months later i found out i was having a baby and morgan is here with us now and hes two and a half then we planned last year to have a sibling for him i found out i was pregnant august the 9th sadly august the 14th i started to bleed and unfortunately misscarried we were heart broken i understnad what you are going through if you ever want to talk feel free to pm me anytime and good luck i hope you catch very very soon try not to stress yourself out too much have you thought about doing opk's if you want in on these again pm me

spunky xx