diva4180

good luck for some good news!

chefamy1122

I really do need to get better at this whole journaling thing!
I have been trying to cut back on all acidic foods to help out my PH level (just in case a miracle happens and I can conceive without doing another IUI) My last period started on June 27th, so my DH and I have been just for the hell of it. I don't think I am going to be fertile or ovulating this month, but the human body is a crazy thing, so who knows!

chefamy1122

I am so annoyed this morning. Last night I was "in the mood" and my DH was playing on computer, so I asked him if he was coming to bed soon and he said he was in a few minutes... so I went to bed, put some preseed in, and waited..and waited...and waited. Finally I went to sleep and I don't even know what time he came to bed.
I am mad I wasted a perfectly good tube of preseed!!

chefamy1122

Today I am having some minor pains on my right side. I think it may be my cysts acting up. It better not be ovulation pains b/c my DH is out of town until Thursday!

chefamy1122

Well, I am on stupid CD 47 and still no sign of I am not suprised, just ANNOYED!! No ovulation, nothing..... this is getting so damn old.

I only cried once this weekend holding my nephew. I just looked in the mirror while I was holding him, and really loved the way I looked holding a baby. It looked and felt so natural to me that I started to cry. Luckily only my aunt saw me b/c she had been watching me most of the day in case I needed a hug or shoulder to cry on (she gave me both)

I am going to set a date soon for us to go back to the fertility institute and start on another round of the Follistim injections and another IUI. DH just got a nice commission check, and we were able to pay for almost all of the last round of treatments. The timing of our house flooding SUCKS so much b/c any extra money we would have had is going to repairing the back room, but I know it will all be worth it when it is done.

Chris77

chefamy1122

Why does TTC have to be so damn hard? The emotions are getting a bit ridiculous. I did really good last week when I was around my nephew, but now whenever I see someone with a baby, or a pregnant lady, I just get this sinking feeling in my stomach like it is never going to happen for me.

Chris77

Awww hun I'm sorry.

For this cycle!

chefamy1122

Okay I give up!!!! I just found out ANOTHER friend is pregnant! WHAT THE HELL????? The same girl who told me several months ago that she did not want kids b/c she was having too much fun partying and going out... .her and her boyfriend are now expecting... by accident.... of course

Chris77

I'm sorry. I know how frustrating it is when everyone around is pg except for you and you feel as though it will never happen.

Feel better hun!