Awww hun I'm so sorry it all must look pretty dull right now
I know this is a bit of reality but it can be helped SO much! When I went through my tests although I wanted every single result to be negative (as us all) I hoped if there was 'anthing' it was one that could be controlled & not that dreaded test that there is simply nothing you can do!
Many many hugs - You know where we all are & you know you can rant any time
Try & think of the positive side although it can be hard!
AND get a bottle of something tonight & join me for a cyber drink
