FJL

Well, she had a baby girl this morning and i'm just feeling so yuck about it all. I just can't shake the feeling that it should be me! I keep thinking that if we got preg straight away we would have a 3 month old baby, or even if we got preg last month we'd be 6 weeks preg.

We get another semen analysis in a few weeks time, so fingers crossed and I will let you all know if there is any improvement.

Thankyou all SO much for your support, it means the world to me

Mango

Don't worry about complaining. That's what the forum and everyone on here is for. I think it's great that you can come on here for support and to talk to someone without judgement, it's hard to find that in everyday life, so say whatever it is you need to, we're all here to listen at least

ElliesMum

I've been where you are many many times. I remember when i had one of my m/c, i was still bleeding and recovering from it after just having a d&c when my brother came over with his wife (who i really cant stand anyway) and they announced in front of everyone that she was 3 months pg and everything was fine and did i want to see their scan photo!

NO I F****ING WELL DIDNT!

SOme people are just so insensitive, some are really good. But no matter how considerate some people try to be it just doesnt take away the hurt and pain that you are feeling.

Try and talk to your sister and explain how you feel, or even write her a letter explaining things, it might help.

Good luck, thinking of you

FJL

Wow ElliesMum, I can't believe they did that! Some people just don't think before they speak do they?

My sister fortunately knows pretty much how I feel, I spilled my guts to her about a month ago and she was really good. I hadn't spoken to her for over a month (normally we speak a few times a week) and I just didn't want to because I was sick of faking how I really felt.

I think we both felt much better when it was all out in the open.

I'm going to see her and the baby in 2 weeks time. She's even planned it just so its me, her and the baby and no one else and I can be a big screaming mess...she is expecting that. So I am very lucky to have such a great family.

This all just sucks so bad, i'm so over it.

wannabmum

Hi Flj,
Don't appoligize for how you are feeling we are all here to support each other so please don't hessitate to vent your feelings.

I 110% understand how difficult this is for you, oh brother and his partner had a baby a year ago in dec by that time we had already bn ttc for 2 years and they fell preg my mistake even now I find it so hard to even be in the same room as my niece and it takes everything in me not to burst into tears I feel so guilty for feeling this way but I just get so jealous and keep thinking how unfair it is that it was so easy for them we should be the ones with the baby, I have her 1st bday party to go to on the 9th of december and I have no idea how I'm going to cope, please keep your chin up flj your baby dreams will come true soon I wish you and oh all the happiness.

Stacey xx