I dont think either of them get its making it harder on me. They have always made me the middle of their triangle. Its a weird dynamic no matter how you look at it right?

I mean its bound to cause some bumps in the road.

I dont know. My hubby is still pushing me to get "checked out" again..and again till someone finds some answers and a solution. He is not as on board with starting the adoption process as I had hoped. Im pushing to try to foster first instead.

Its just so frustrating that people are holding me back when I just want to move on.

Its not like I can just quit my hubby and my parents! (sometime I wish this wasn't the case ) But man they are asshats sometimes!

I think a second opinion is always a good idea, if it is possible. Coming through this process, I have realised that Doctors don't always agree.

But then who is to say the second one would be right......

Would he go for surrogacy? Is that easy to do in Canada?

My god nic... After what you've been through you are such an amazing and strong person. I cant imagine... I am sure that Lakai gets his strength from you for sure.

Nic, I agree with the others to get a second opinion.
If it's different than the first, then great - you've been given more reason to hope and that's wonderful.
If it confirms what the first team of docs said, then okay, you now have stronger reason for your family to accept it and start moving in the direction you're already headed: adoption. At least no one will be able to say that you didn't try or anything stupid like that, you know?
And because you did win, babe. The sickos that did this to you didn't touch your spirit. You kept that pure and intact.

So time for a GOOD update..I got called back by the specialist who said his colleague wanted to see me because she had studied and done a lot of surgeries on people with similar cases to mine, but typically their scar tissue was caused by the word I cannot spell of course...endometriosis and other "v" issues. And a few caused by rape or trauma. Ok that sounds promising. Except this colleague was only in town for today and then not back till Jan.

CRAP!

So I went in after hours today and she basically performed a D&C on my uterus and removed some of scar tissue on my cervix. Some being that if they removed anymore I may end up with a weak cervix.

She performed an ultrasound after and said that nothing stuck out as being physically 'wrong' with me to prevent further child birth. And that my specialist really wasn't that well versed in this type of situation but at least tried his utter best to get me help. Which he did do...but man...this whole thread could have been avoided

Does this mean I can have babies now? Possibly...does this mean I will go into preterm labor again? That she could not answer.

She also said that it was a miracle that Lakai made it past 15 weeks because there just was NO room in there for him. She said he must have really wanted to be here and I better take extra special care of him always. She was utterly taken with him too. =) She couldn't believe he had had such a bad brain bleed, she like most doctors who do not work with neonates say that in adults...the patient would be dead..but neonates are something special!


Oh yes they are!

Well....ladies. Thank you all so much for the support...I guess like our births..this thread was premature. Im sorry for causing such a stir, I just needed to share where I felt safest to do so. So thank you for being that to me.

Watch out for my BFP! I hope!

I cant say these sentences didn't bring tears to my eyes! Thank you.

Wow, sounds like wonderful news! Well done you!!!!!

That's fantastic! Just read the whole thread and didn't expect to find this on the last page! I hope you get the pregnancy you deserve and that soon you cannot see your feet.

Huge well done's to you and Lakai, as someone else said, he obviously gets his strength from you.

Praying that you get the baby that you deserve hun...your amazing and i really admire you and your strength xx