It is SO wonderful being more involved now. Everytime we drive to the hospital and I can see it up the hill I get butterflies

I want Jay to have his first cuddle tonight tho. I think he's a little scared.. And he was feeling sad and left out the first night I held her

I could tell because he was distant from me the day after
He wants to wait til her ventilators switched but we don't know when that is so I think it would make him very happy if he would do it now. She did so awesome last night that I think it would be fine.