I know I have another 9 weeks till I'm due, but for some reason I have this big fear of bubs coming early. I guess It's cause I'm not as prepared as I'd like to be, seeing as I haven't even moved in with my fiancé' yet. Since our LO was unplanned (though we are so thrilled about her!), we aren't financially where we want to be, plus the economy is so bad. So his parents offered to have us live with them until we can afford an apartment or something. They have this "in law apartment" type thing, a large L-shaped room with a bathroom and closet. So the new floors went in (bamboo, it's so pretty!) but painting guy is slow and still hasn't finished painting. He can only come like once a week, so I've been waiting for weeks to move in. So all the baby's stuff in still in bags in the guest room and all my stuff is in boxes at my parent's house. So we are defiantly not ready if she comes early. Also I'm afraid of her coming early, like now early. Why? because my fiance is having issues with his health insurance. He has to send something into the company but until he does, he is not covered, and neither is the baby (which will be when he fixes the problem). And since my insurance wont cover the baby, I'm worried that she'll come in the next however long it is until its fixed, or that something will happen to my OH. We can't afford either hospitalization right now. Plus my plan ends at the end of august and I'm due in Sept. and what if my fiancé's coverage isn't excepted at the hospital I'm registered at? I'll have to have some stranger doctor in a not so great hospital. The hospital I'm going to has some of the best doctors and a fabulous staff and maternity unit. Though I think it should work since it's a hospital, and all. I'm just so nervous, I wanted to be moved in and his health care taken care of, and I though it would happen 3 weeks ago. Ugh I wish the US had a better health care system! That and my OH is always late. Like I was picking him up from work last night and he kept me waiting in the parking lot for 50 min!

then I just went in and starting crying very angrily in front of his manager, which I do feel a bit bad about. But I was pissed cause it was 12am when we got back to the parking lot. But he's very very often late in picking me up, or just meeting to hang out. So what if I call him to tell him to take me to the hospital and he doesn't come straight away?
Sorry for the long rant

luckily I'm going out with my mom now to get stuff for my baby shower next sunday, so that should cheer me up.