Monday was my last day of work. I had 33 days holiday to use up and I am officially on vacation and start maternity leave on 29 June. I had been working from home after I fell on my bump at work last month and was in complete hysterics. My manager was so supportive as well as my colleagues.
So, my manager came by yesterday to get my laptop and files...and dropped off two substantial gift vouchers - one from my colleagues and one from her. I was a bit tearful and so chuffed.

Now, my days will be taken up with meeting friends who do not work during the day, caring for our pets (dog and 3 rabbits), housework and doing some gardening.

I also had to buy some new clothes and caved in and went to Evans. And was shocked to see what size I am now. I had an underactive thyroid before I was pregnant and it became even more so during it. I finally got regulated in my 6th month, but my consultant just ordered further blood work to ensure it is still regulated. I've gained 5.5 stone and feel so huge and fat.

I was not skinny before this, but was a size 14/16 and now I am in a 24/26! I was almost in tears at my size and cannot stand the way I look. Most people just see a fat woman, not a pregnant one. So, I am really careful of what I am eating and how much. And as a vegetarian, I make sure that I get all the things I need. At least the weight gain slowed down and I think I lost some of it. I am just not looking forward to the dieting afterwards because no matter how careful I am or how much I exercise, it always comes off painfully slow. But, it is a necessary evil. On a positive side, the weight gain has not affected the baby at all. My blood pressure if always good, no signs of pre-eclampsia, GTT's came back fine, etc.

And due to hormones, I am feeling terribly insecure with my fiance. Silly thoughts like he is only with me for the baby keeps running in my head, that he wishes he was able to go out to the clubs like we used to, etc. I know it is ridiculous because he is happier now than before. He was bored with going out and the baby has really lifted his spirits. I also know he likes the idea of me being home and having home made meals. He always tells me he likes the fact we are home now and he has time to do the things he has always wanted.

I love my son very much, but I am so not into being pregnant. And to be honest, I want my body back! I just want my son to be healthy and know I do not have much longer to go, but 9 months is way too long to be pregnant. But, someone told me that elephants are pregnant for 5 years in an effort to cheer me up. It did not work.....

Aww hunny sounds like you have been through the mill with the thyroid problem but at least not its being controlled and hopefully afterwards you'll get the right help to keep it on track again.
Forget about the weight gain and concentrate on bubba and your OH. Confidence with who you are is so attractive and im sure your OH loves you so much and sounds like he so wants to be a Daddy.
I have gained 3 and a half stone so far but my midwife said i am carrying a hell of a lot of fluid so half of your weight gain might drop off once baby is here automatically and once baby is here it should start dropping off anyway especially if you are breast feeding etc.
I get paranoid sometimes too and i think it is to do with our stupid raging hormones but hopefully once on an even keel again tings will improve.
Hang in there and i really hope you use your time off to relax,think positive and enjoy the rest of being a baby cooker
BTW are you in the uk?

ah hugs to hun x pregnancy comes with so many hormones which can make u feel so low.i know its hard try not to worry about your weight gain it will be worth it to have ur LO and once u have had him it will drop of u watch. just concentrate on enjoying the last few weeks with ur OH before ur LO comes along. xxx

Lots of hugs hunni...

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Awwww...thanks....I know I threw a pity party for myself.

I have Hashimoto's Thyroiditis and it has plagued me since I was 13. I used to be skinny as a rail and ate like a horse and now I am opposite. The last time I gained a lot of weight (nearly 20 years ago) it took me years to get it off. I lost 6 stone in total. It is more that I am frustrated with it. I just hope my son does not get it because it is hereditary. I know I will lose the weight again since I did a nifty diet a few years back that helped me lose it and keep it off. But, I will need to do it once I am done breastfeeding. But, we decided to just eat healthy, plenty of fruits, veggies and beans. The weight gain does not bother my fiance one bit. He is like - you look pregnant.

And you are right, it will come off with breastfeeding, which I plan on doing. I think it is better and healthier for the baby plus creates a special bond.

I know it is the raging hormones causing paranoia. I even told my fiance about it and said I knew it was my hormones. He has been such a fantastic man and is so in love with me and our baby. I am really fortunate, but still had to whinge!

I am in the UK, by the way, in Dartford, Kent. Where are you located?

These hormones suck!!! And I will take my over the weight gain especially after being told I could not have children. I lost the weight before and can do it again, but I never thought I would be a mother. So, I will take the trade off.

My OH keeps reminding me that we will have a crying baby in a few months and to enjoy what rest we can get.

Thanks.

Im sorry you're feeling so rubbish hun, it sounds like you've had a bit of a time of it.

I don't really know what advice to give but

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Don't have any advise hun really but just wanted to sedn a big