I just wanted a moan, it always makes me feel better when i get it off my chest in here, hope you dont mind

firstly, i cant leave work early even though i actually NEED to, because i cant get in to see a GP until Monday to get a sick note. Well, i leave tuesday, so what good is that? Means i have 4 days left of work which i dont feel comfortable doing because yesterday i got bad pains, MOnday i was sick. I dont need the stress and the discomfort, its difficult to drive in, and my colleagues annoy me. Im glad i have had today off, but really dont want to go back in. If i 'self certify' myself as being off sick i will loose the 3 days holiday i have owed to me which i was taking as the first three days of my maternity leave if that makes sense.

Also, midwife has given me a form for another blood test just because im feeling off, no energy etc. But they only do AM appointments and i work 8 miles away in the city so its not easy for me to just leave work and go for a test at the GPs and then go back to work again because of driving which i find very uncomfortable now and beacause of the limited parking spaces at my place of work and the stress of trying to find one when i get back. So inconveniantly im having to go to the hospital, which lucklily isnt too far from my route to work, early tomorrow to get blood test done

Then just the fact that i want hubby here with me ALL the time and he cant be. He's constantly working, then when he's home he's messing about on ebay trying to find parts for his campervan so we can go camping in the summer, is it too selfish of me to want him to be by my side, cooking my dinner, cleaning the place and doing the food shop? Last night he was 'too tired' to go do a big food shop we desperately needed so i made him go to the chip shop. TOday, having a day off, after my midwife and dental appointments i dragged myself round the supermarket but all the bags were heavy. Hubby wasnt around to help with them so luckily my sister had just finished work and came and lifted the heavy stuff and put it all away for me. But i feel so guilty about not being able to do this stuff on my own. I feel like a single parent already! I know hubby has t work to bring in money for us to live now that im almost on maternity leave, but i cant do everything myself now, i just dont have the energy and he doesnt seem to understand this

Right i think thats about it, sorry to bore!!!

I know how you are feeling.

Try and have a nice bath tonight and an early night and wake up feeling a bit refreshed tomorrow.

sorry cant give any words of advice , its hard when your oh works so much. mine is about 250 miles away tonight so im not happy either xx