... only minus one bump (which is quite odd). I keep going to hug it, or rub it, ... and it’s not there! Last night I even caught myself thinking “She isn’t kicking!”
You know for something that seems to last so long, pregnancy sure does end very suddenly! Whether you have a long drawn out labour, or a quick and relatively easy one like mine, the birth of your child is always going to seem sudden when it means the end of the epic 9-month-but-feels-like-a-lifetime journey that is your pregnancy.
It had become a very big part of my life – being pregnant – I’d count down each step, tick off each day as I got closer and closer to my goal, come on here every night and talk about ‘being pregnant’... all with this in mind... and now I’m here, at the end of all that, no longer TashaAndBump, but Tasha – mummy to my gorgeous, tiny little Angel... And I’m finding myself thinking, “ummm... what next??”!
Pregnancy seemed to end especially suddenly for me because I wasn’t expecting to go into labour any time soon; I went to bed expecting the next day to get up, take a photo of my bump, log on, and talk to you mad lot about pregnancy. Instead, I woke up very early, feeling unwell (good job, too because if I hadn’t then DH would have been in London that day instead of at home with me, making sure I was okay!), my waters broke at something past 10, contractions picked up some time around 12 and I was taken to hospital in an ambulance not long after that. I was scared at first and genuinely questioned whether I could do it, but as soon as I learned how to get through each contraction and deal with them in a way that worked for me (sitting upright and rocking on my hands, breathing through each one waiting for it to pass, and remembering that it
would pass!) they just got easier and easier. I had hardly any break between my contractions so it was just a matter of getting through each surge – one after another – and then briefly (very briefly!) relaxing before the next one. At 4 o’clock I had my first internal, and was only 1cm dilated, but the time flew by and hours seemed like minutes - At 7 I had my second and final internal examination and was found to be a further 7cm dilated!! (now 8 ). Soon after that I started feeling the urge to push. I held back for a while because I wasn’t sure if it was right, but they weren’t going to examine me again so I decided to trust that my body knew what it was doing – I pushed, and with three contractions and three pushes my darling daughter was born.
It’s fairly odd to go from being a pregnant person as I was, to being a mum, (although you’d think you’d expect that to happen!) especially as I didn’t get to update you guys personally step-by-step – I was only in the hospital 6 days but believe me, it felt like a lifetime. Now I’m home, and no longer one of you guys!! I almost miss it except I’m so incredibly euphoric at having my precious little girl home with me. Everything is certainly very different. But I’m loving it. You guys are in for one hell of a special time – words can seriously not describe how incredible it feels to hold your LO in your arms and know that you made her, and that she truly is the most perfect and beautiful baby ever, and she is yours to look after and protect, always.
So there (after writing it all out once and getting very upset and teary because my stupid computer made me loose it all and I had to start again
) is my story in my own words (though I’m very grateful to my husband for keeping you all updated while I was stuck in hospital – He was so incredible, supporting me in every way possible. ... The man deserves a medal!)
I know you guys have already seen photos of our Anna, but here is my facebook album if you’re interested – there are some more recent photos from when she started to get better and look around and stuff – she looks like a completely different baby to the one that I gave birth to – she’s so full of colour and life!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?ai...b&id=757448209
I wish you all the best in your own labours and deliveries – can’t wait to read all about them, too! Let me tell you one thing before I wrap this thread up, though; Everything you have been through, and everything you are going through now, is more than worth it when you have your little bundle of joy. And if I had to, to get my little girl, I’d do it all x 10 in a flash!
Finally, I’d like to thank you all for your comments of support throughout my labour and during the scary time that Anna was in SCBU – they really were a comfort to me when I was stuck in hospital with no other contact to the outside world!
*phew* This has been one hell of a long update, I know, so thank you for reading it all! It’s gonna take me a very long time to catch up on what’s been going on around here in my absence, so I better get cracking!! Hope you are all well, and that my husband has not been causing too much trouble around the forums!
The real TashaAndBump x
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