...what the hell am I gonna do!?

This whole two week window for lateness is half the bother I think... Otherwise I could move the final baby things into place and start picturing her. But knowing it could be any time in the next 2 weeks just means I don't feel like I can get *ready* in my head.

I'm trying to get mentally prepared, but something in me just cant fathom no-baby oneday and baby-forever the next.

I know I'm gonna be in shock, and I'm so nervous about how to deal with family while I'm getting used to it.

This morning I thought... What if everybody wants to hold her. They will won't they. Be fair, I was given my goddaughter to hold on the day she was born... but I can imagine me quickly getting very pissy when it's my new baby.

Seeing midwife on Saturday (due day) maybe she'll give me some guidance on how promptly to expect her. She's usually pretty tight lipped though.

*hugs* Am the same here!

I've been soooo looking forward to meeting her, then last night, half awake and half asleep, i thought my waters were broken (had pillow inbetween my legs and if i moved and made it move, i somehow thought it was water trickling down my legs?? lol) and i just freaked out for a second. Labour? Now? I would meet her soon? Then, holy shit, i will have a baby. Forever. To look after and who will depend on me. Only the night before had i been joking to my BIL that i will get a nice long lie in in the morning, only for that lie in to never happen because i was about to have a baby RIGHT NOW, and i probably wouldn't get another lie in for forever.

Then i fell back to sleep - lol.

I really sympathise with your dilemma.

I ain't worried one bit about labour (although possibly should be) - I'm worried about after! And yes, they will want to pick up your baby

I went to see my cousins baby last week and he was sleeping in his moses basket (gorgeous boy!). My mum came in and the first thing she did was pick him up! I tried to say to her 'should you really be doing that?' but she knew best. Within half an hour, he was passed around all of the aunties. My cousin didn't seem too annoyed (it is her 3rd I suppose), but I know that I'll be a quivering wreck!

Also think about it in that you've had 9 months to prepare for her arrival. You've read up on everything and you'll be in a bit of a baby-love-daze for a few days, so the shock won't come immediately, if at all!

Bloods, yep that whole 'have a nap later' type thing... maybe I should jut try and sleep from now until contractions

I think maybe we should be clear about some sort of time limited visiting, but I know I'll feel different about the duration depending on who it is

Only my mum and SIL know to expect to be visiting us at home, everyone else thinks they'll be nipping to the hospital 5 mins from where they all live.

Maybe BF will be my salvation... "Sorry, I need to feed her now" - although I suspect I'll still be a bimbling fool about it at that stage.

This is crazy, I'm planning on giving birth at home, yet its my MILs fscking whittering and picking and my dads manic jabbering, on first visit, which is filling me with dread!

Oh dear! That would fill me with dread too!!


I'm liking the breastfeeding idea as an excuse to get rid of people - think that might work really well.
And hopefully people will ring and ask when there will be a good time to come visit, so i can spread people out at least.

Oh i could SO have posted this myself!!! Had a couple of 'practice runs' or 'false starts' or whatever they're called the past couple of days, with tightenings that go on and on and then stop, and weird feelings and far too many bowel movements for my liking! lol. So every day is getting ridiculous as it is a case of "Could be TODAY!!!! " OR could be a whole month from now

I hardly slept last night with the constant weird tightenings and this morning i heard myself say to OH "I'm not going to aquanatal today, i'm spending the day in bed, because otherwise if i were to go into labour today i would be too tired to manage" and then it hit me "I could go into labour TODAY and have a baby, say, tomorrow, but we've not even sorted out the spare room yet, and i need a lie-in! etc etc"

It is really hard to get your head around i think.

And i too am less scared about labour and birth (as in the pain and the gore etc) than i am about a. Something going wrong or b. Not being able to cope afterwards.

I know what i am like, as a person, i am not a great hostess, i find it hard to relax when people come round as i feel i should constantly be *doing* something like making them cups of tea or entertaining them or whatever, so i can see the whole 'constant stream of visitors' thing really getting me down. Hopefully, like you say, the breastfeeding will be a good way to get baby back on my lap instead of everyone elses and also maybe get them to bugger off!

I'm kinda looking forward to labour... i'm an attention whore and i know the minute i go into labour my whole family will be running around me like headless chickens. I have a pretty big family, so not anyone one of us gets to be centre of attention for long (and we all love it, lol) so it will be nice for a day for it to be all about me :-) ... and then baby will come along and it will be all about her! Lol.