Hello every one please let me explain.....I am pregnant with my 3rd child i ahve SPD and have had it since i was about 24 weeks or so and it has got unbearable my due date was 30th July and obviously that has been and gone, Tuesday just gone ( becuase of the agony i am in ) i was given my 1st sweep, my plug came away with this one but nothing else.....i then had a 2nd one done yesterday (friday) and i am upset to report that still nothing has happened! I have been booked in for 1 attempt at an induction on Tuesday morning (04/08)( they can only do one attempt at this due to having a previous c section and the jelly they use interfers with the internal scarring or some thing ) they have said they will leave me 6 possibly 7 hours and if i am still not going into labour they are gonna put me in for a c section either later that day or early the next day.

Now the reason i am crying my eyes out about this is because with my 1st son i had a c section due to him being breech and the spinal did not work for me there were complications so i had to be knocked out completely and i didn't see my son until he was 3 hours old and after every one else had seen him before me had a cuddle before me...i don't actually feel liek i bonded with him straight away because of this and as i was unable to do any thing much for him really up until he was about a week old i felt useless ( very depressed )! I am so scared that its gonna be like that again I am totally and completely scared about the whole process. MY hubby and my mum are really worried about how another c section will affect me!

I am really pissed off cause if it weren't for this flippin SPD i would have just waited and waited for him to come naturally another annoying thing is that i did not have the condition with my 2 other pregnancies and the doc's and MW's have all said it's very strange and rare that i have it with my 3rd pregnancy but didn't have it with the 1st 2 i am obviously very unlucky!!!!!

Any way thank you for reading this and i am sorry if i have gone on a bit i just needed to get it all off my chest!

Thank you again. X

i can sympathies with you, with my daughter i was failure to progress and had to have emergency C section, the epidural failed and the spinal failed, so i was knocked out too. I remember being wakened up and i couldn't remember what the hell had happened to me until the doctor says you have a beautiful baby girl, then it clicked, so by this time my sister and ex partner had already seen and held her, i got her flashed in front of my face for two seconds before they took her away... i asked my sister how she looked and then she brought the baby over to me to show me her properly. But after they had left she was put in a cot 10 ft away from my bed, i was so doped up and ill feeling i couldn't of dealt with her so the midwifes throughout the night were tending to her, all i could do is push the button when she cried, i felt so useless.

There is a possibility this time i will opt for another c section due to PSD and also i have group B strep that is worrying me. But i DO NOT want to be put to sleep. I have spoke to a anaesthesiologist who says as long as it is 'one of the bigger boys' IE the older and more experienced dr then i should be able to get a spinal or epidural in no worries (because i am over weight and difficult to get my back into the right position)

I would love a natural birth because i will be the first to hold my baby but at the same time i have mega back pain and hip/pelvis pain which is causing me a lot of distress (especially at night) i feel i might opt for the c section to save me the stress of labour. I am seeing the consultant on Monday to discuss my options. Chin up hun, at least at the end of the day you will have a beautiful new wee baba xxx

Hi Poppy,

I'm sorry about the c-section. I have that same fear as my baby is breech right now too. I'll be 32 weeks on Monday and hoping he turns. I had a question about your first pregnancy....did they try to turn your son before the decision was made on a c-section.

Hi nyltin

yes they did try and turn him before they booked me in for the c section mine obviously was unsuccessful i found it very uncomfy as well however the reason it was so uncomfy for me was because his bum was actually engaged instead of his head so they wouldn't have been able to turn him at all..........thats another thing they won't make another scar they will cut the previous one again and mine due to his bum being engaged is literally from one thigh to the other across the whole of my body. its looks horrible. X

Im sorry to hear this, I had to have a general with my second section so I know how it feels to wake up and feel confused etc. Im also sorry to hear you other child was scarred by the section, thats a real fear of mine.
Someone mentioned seeing an anethsetist, it may be worth you doing that cause I saw one this preg and was told that if there were probs I too might need a senior fella guided by ultrasound (which they didnt do before) so that gave me hope.

Awww Poppy I understand how you feel honey. I hope that it works out but there is no reason why the spinal shouldn't work this time. It's a different day with a different doctor so hopefully he'll be better at finding the right spot. Fingers crossed though that doesn't need to happen and he comes on his own

There's still time for LO to come naturally. If I were you I would tell your OH not to let anyone visit until you're ready so that, other than your OH, you are the first person to meet your baby whatever happens. Like Pippin says, there's no reason you'd need to be knocked out again this time so there's a good chance you'll be giving LO its first cuddle.