I'm a naturally highly strung person, and have been even moreso since becoming pregnant. I get very wound up very quickly and stress out majorly at the slightest things. I'm so worried that because of the amount of stress I harbour my baby will be stressed as well and hate me for it

. Physically my pregnancy has been easy compared to some women's, but emotionally it's been awful from day one. I am not with the baby's father anymore (we broke up not long after I found out) and he has not made my life particularly easy. He tried to force me to have an abortion, and since I didn't he is now always changing his mind about whether he wants to be involved, lying to me etc. I have also heard some nasty rumours about him and i get so upset. It makes me feel so much hatred towards him, I'm so scared the baby will come out hating people as well and it'll be all my fault. I can hold a grudge for a very long time, and as much as I try to move on I can't because I do actually want the father to be there for his baby. It hurts so much and I just wish I could chill out
