Hiya ladies,
Thought id let you know that on sunday 13th i started getting really strong pains in my belly , Hoping they where just gunna pass i was gunna wait till morning before doing anything. i got up monday morning after having no sleep through the night , and found that my plug was coming out .
Went straight to the hospital , and they took me straight to the labour ward and after and examination found my cervix had opended and there where bulging membraines coming out . The first consultant that came to see me was such a vile bitch , and i hope she never has to go through this. came in and basicly dismissed my little boy as nothing , she just said where not gunna do anything because your only 21 weeks so it can just be classed as a miscarriage instead of a delivery ok , and left .
After that they just took me to the bereavement suit , after a couple of hours another consultant came in and told me he wasn't going to just leave me without trying . They Put me on medication to reduce the water in his bag , and another up my bum to stop my body going into labour , and tilted my bed head down hoping gravity would help too. after 48 hours they where hoping to stitch my cervix together and that id be ok . by monday night though i had the urge to push and was in so much pain , But i told them it was just trapped wind and got by on paracetamol and back rubs . Tuesday i was feeling alot better in my self after my examination when they found the bag had shrunk and all was looking hopeful , all i had to do was get through till morning when they where going to put the stitch in . Then i started bleeding , it gradually increasing . But the midwifes and doctors said it might be nothing . still in denial i persuaded everyone it was just wind and survived on just back rubs . although The pains where getting so strong . By about half 10 i couldnt handle it no more . and the consultant came to examine me. he had a feel and could feel his feet in the bag hanging out my cervix. labor was inevitable and the told me there was nothing they could do . although i refused to push and pretended to be asleep so they would leave me alone i knew i could do it , at half 10 i started on the gas and air and began to push . at 11.05 My lil boy was born , in his placenta. Although they said he would be still born he came out alive and held on for 35 minutes. I didnt understand why nobody would help him . after he had gone they took us to the bereavement room , and took him for some pictures and hand prints , they brought him back and measured & weighed him at 14 ounces he was a ft long
he was so perfect i never knew it was possible to love someone that much. He had really big feet and hands and long legs , like daddy. we put him in bed with us and me and my boyfriend stayed up all night just staring at him , crying. The next day we took him home. bathed him and put some tiny clothes on him , making a hat out of a scratch mitten. and at around 9 oclock , the funeral director came and picked him up . we carried him out to the car in a moses basket and said good bye.hes coming home today though because where having him christened . And we've booked his funeral for the 25th. Also have to register him today , decided to call him Jayden Robert Leslie Priestley . I miss him so much and i dont understand why god would take my lil boy away from me
Anyway I hope all of your pregnancy's go well and ill be back to see all your lil babies . Take care all . xxx
Jodie
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