Good luck tomorrow at your scan...sending you positive vibes

xx

just seen this thread - I am so sorry for what you are going through. You have to hold on to every small bit of hope and try and be positive for your little one.

I know every day you are waiting feels like a lifetime and worst than the last. Waiting is so hard to deal with but you have been so strong so far!

I wish you all the best tomorrow. You are a fighter and I hope your Lo takes after you! Cherish every little kick - they are such special moments!

sending you loads of luck and courage hun

Oh hun, I really wish you the best of luck tomorrow. I also think you need to find a more nurturing doctor!

Thanks everyone,

But im afraid i lost some more fluid last night

I woke up at 3am and my pjamas were wet & i was bleeding again (Not a lot of blood - more like red tinged water) I havent slept since as im too worried.

It seems to have stopped now thankfully & i've heard baby's heart beating away as strong as ever, so all i can do is wait & hope i didn't lose too much.

I'll update you all later xx

awww hun im sorry your losing more fluid , but good news that you heard the heart beat is there nothing they can do to improve the fluid ? good luck at your scan today . violet xx

sorry to hear u had a bad night but still positive that u heard baby's HB!! good luck 4 2day sweetie, will have u both in my thoughts 2day!! xx

Hope u get the news u are wanting today. Will be thinking about you today. Good luck

Rest rest rest. Dont move a muscle. Glad LO is ok.

x

Well - where do I begin?

Got scanned again this morning & baby appears to be fine, but my fluid hasnt built up since last time (or if it had - I lost it again last night) so im back to square one

The outlook is very poor & i've been given "19 chances out of 20" that I'll lose my baby, the worst thing is... it could happen tomorrow or it might not be until 6wks further down the road. It's the uncertainty that I find hard to deal with.

My consultant recommended I have a termination but I couldnt live with myself knowing that there was the slightest chance my baby would make it.

I have to be monitored twice a week by him for signs of infection & all being well I'll be re-scanned every monday to check for progress.
He's setting me up with a counsellor to give me support as im basically waiting for my baby to die & there's not a damn thing anyone can do about it

I've been broken hearted all day but i've decided that i dont wanna grieve for him until i know for certain that he's gone. I keep telling myself that we we're put onto this planet to have children & the human body is an amazing thing so if there's any way things are going to turn out right I just have to be strong and have faith. I know that stress is bad for us both so I cant afford to let myself fall to pieces.

I'm just gonna have to take it one day at a time & hope i can get through another week without losing any more fluid - so i can at least have some hope for my next scan.

Thank you all for your kind words of support - it really means a lot to me xx