Hi guys

I had to book the day off work today because my boiler is broken and need someone to come out and fix it asap. So i rung up work and told them id take it as a days holiday (which i didnt really want to do cos i want to save up all my holiday leave for when im on maternity) and made arrangements for one of my collegues to type out these urgent meeting notes that i would've needed to do today if i was in. All was sorted, put the phone down and im sat watching tv waiting for the boiler man.

THEN i get a phone call from one of the bosses saying "yeah, sorry your boiler is broken but you have left us in the lurch today, i needed YOU to do those meeting notes and they are URGENT for this afternoon blah blah blah"

I was so shocked and upset so i rung up one of my managers to inform them i had sorted someone else out to do these urgent notes and he was all fine with it and didnt want my boss ringing me up like that as there was no need. Reassuring me basically and i completely broke down on the phone but said goodbye before it turned into a full on wailing session.

i completely broke down, could hardly breath and was hyperventalating. But like really really sobbing and i couldnt stop myself! Im quite sensitive anyways and i think im silly for getting so upset about it but i couldnt help it. My lovely work friends rung me up cursing my boss for getting me so upset and telling me my manager feels really guilty that my boss rung me and upset me. i just now feel SOOOO guilty for not being in work to type these f**king meeting notes.

Anyways, iv calmed down now, but im worried this outburst of stress i caused myself has harmed my little baby boy. i still have to catch my breath when i breathe in deeply. Will i have caused any damage???

My boss is a t*sser

Sorry for the rant, but i kinda feel better now for writing it down xxx

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baby will be fine I actually read in my pregnancy book that stress could actually sometimes be good as it prepares baby for the outside world!... But not too much of it mind! xox

Jeez what a total tosser! I'd report him to HR when you're back in the office. You deserve an apology. You'd covered your work, there was absolutely no need for it whatsoever.

Grrr - am furious on your behalf!!!!

Big hugs hun. Try not to let it get to you - he's obviously a tosser and thought you'd be an easy target. Its called bullying. Your HR dept wouldnt take kindly to that, particularly in your current state, and they know a tribunal wouldnt take to it kindly either.

Im sure you will be fine hun. Hormones are a funny thing and I've lost it a few times myself, the smallest thing can set me off. Im sure your baby is fine. Try and rest and don't let your boss upset you sweetie.
It doesn't sound like a panic attack to me, sounds more like you just got very very upset. Sending you a big hug x

Hi ClaireLouise, firstly I'd like to offer you big HUGS! Your boss had no right to do that, and as such deserves to be reported once you get back to work as he obviously has a lack of people skills which needs urgent adressing! Secondly, please take comfort in knowing that this was not a panic attack. It was your hormones kicking in with a healthy dose of tears, which can actually be good for you as crying out tension releases feel good endorphins afterwards, which is good for you and your baby! For future reference a panic attack feels similar to a heart attack crossed with a seizure. I used to suffer with them long before my epilepsy started and they used to terrify me! Big HUGS again, and verbally kick his ass when you get back! xxxxx

Sorry your boss upset you!! Hope you are feeling a bit better now!
Dont worry about LO he will be fine xx

nope this isnt a panic attack, i have them, and boy its awful. btw bubs would be fine even if you did have one..

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I realised afterwards that i didnt have one as i have suffered from a panic attack before and you feel like you're having a heart attack dont you! I was just panicking.

Anyways, i got into work this morning, my ar*ewipe of a boss doesnt work Fridays but everyone was coming up to me and asking how i was and telling me he is a t*sser for upsetting me like that. Then another boss of mine told me if i wanted to involve a solicitor etc, to come see im and even he thought it was disgusting. I dont want it to be blown out of proportion. yes, he did speak to me like a piece of crap but i dont want to make life hard for myself by involving solicitors and such.

He just said if he does it again, to come see him and he will deal with it. Two people even went into his office apparently and confronted him about it. Blimey, word travels fast in work eh!? I only told 2 people!

I am a sensitive person il admit that, and i shouldnt have gotten as upset as i did i suppose i just couldnt physically help it. Damn these pregnancy hormonies!

I just hope that when he does come in on Monday, he doesnt bring it up cos i dont really want to speak to him.

But much better today thanks ladies.

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