SIGH, I know this has nothing to do with being pregnant or the second trimester but I feel like a heartbroken princess locked in a tower

I met this guy about a year ago and we went out for a few drinks...well it was literally the best night I've ever had in my whole life, it makes me want to cry looking back on it because I know I'll never be able to go back and relive it (Sorry hormones) Everything was so perfect, it was like something out of a film...and I've never laughed so hard in my life or got on with anyone so well in my life. OH no now I've set myself off! How embarrasing...

Anyway a year has gone by since then and we were "seeing each other" for a couple of months after that first date...then things stopped because he didn't want to be in a relationship with anyone because of problems with his ex who is the mother of his child....a few months after that, he ended up going behind my back and confessing to my best mate over msn that he loved me and thought he wanted to be with me....I told him I felt the same way but NOTHING HAPPENED. I have no idea why he said it because nothing ever came of it. I don't think he actually meant it anyway...he was drinking a bit back then because he was so miserable...anyway since all that, quite a while has gone past and we're still friends...we've had a lot of silly rows (personally I think it's because of things that happened in the past) and made up afterwards...he was seeing someone over Christmas and then I met the guy who got me pregnant....when I told him I was "with someone" he went mental over msn when he was drunk....and only one other person knows this but the whole time I was with my baby's father, I just wanted to be with him instead And the guy I was with knew this as well as he kept making comments about how I was "in love" with this guy which I always denied.

Anyway I know nothing will ever happen between us There will always be something still there but I'm pretty sure he doesn't feel the same way, ARGHHHH I'm so angry I need to get over this!! But I just can't, he's one of my best friends in the whole wide world as well and it's weird, he is the only person I have EVER trusted with my WHOLE ENTIRE BEING. It's a really weird feeling trusting someone 100% as I've never had that before...

URGH how do I get over him?! I've tried so hard and I've been more hurt over people before and managed to get over it but this time, it's not like I sit here crying into my pillow every night because I don't....I just can't stop myself from being like this! Maybe I'm a psycho?? I don't know...either way a year has gone by and my mind won't stop! But he's just so perfect URGH sorry ladies, I'm guessing this is all hormones, I just need to move on from this! Thanks for listening!

Normally I'd have said that it's really not fair on the guy you are with and the father of your baby to be thinking about someone else constantly but as you ARE pregnant and your hormones are going to be wild, it's not the best time to be making any relationship decisions.

You may just be havinga surge of this past love and it may fade off and you'll wonder how you could have even thought of life without the father of your child. Or you may continue to feel like this until after the baby is born.

I'd say wait and see how it goes. Hormones are funny things and you may just be having a blip honey.

Take care x

Didnt want to run and read ! I dont really know other than to say that time is a good healer.. and that if its meant to be it will be .. But i know that means nothing when you are hurting ... so here are some

Well Poppycat, I'm not WITH the father of the baby, he fucked off into the sunset and now has a new girlfriend and wants nothing to do with his child. And frankly I don't want him having anything to do with his child either as he already has 1 who he's banned from seeing because he beat up his ex girlfriend in front of him.

Oh Hunny I imagine youre probably feeling quite lonely now too right? Im not in a position to be giving out relationship advice, but I do feel for you. Does he feel the same way? Could something happen?
If not then I guess severing all ties with him, ie deleting his mobile no, off msn, off facebook etc is possibly the only way to get over him - out of sight out of mind. Time is a great healer (cliche, I know, but true)

if i were yo i would throw yourself completely into your baby to keep your mind of him, when baby is here you will be soooooo busy you wont have time to think about him.
then in a year or two he might of grown up a bit and want a relationship with you, clearly he had some feelings for you! times a great healer!!
dont get upset! i know its hard tho!

I didnt wanna read and run, but if you need to vent etc just pm me xxx

Like someone else above said, time is a good healer, and although it hurts right now it probably won't later on. I know it's hard to just "forget" about someone you loved or still love but sometimes you have to let things go and if it comes back then it was meant to be. I hope you feel better soon sweets and hang in there, things will get better, I promise!

Couldn't have said it better myself.