Angelmouse

Having read a few excerpts from some of the other journals, I thought it would be a lovely idea to do one too.

I didn't keep one for either of my two boys and frankly wish I had done now since I can't remember half of the dates when what, happened.

So maybe start with a bit of history.

I have two boys Stefan is 14 and Charlie is 22months. From different sources but they love each other more than I had any right to hope for.

I had Stef when I was only 18. The donar was a bit handy with his fists and when he put my teeth through my lip at six months gone, I knew I had to be too. Consequently I was on my tod during a C-section that I had NO idea what was going on. The only choice I had about anything was whether I wanted it done on the 15th or the 8th!

So ok scary.

Since then and now I've been married before but we'll just that one.

So now I'm happily married to a wonderful man and Dad to my little Charlie star. I ended up in an emergency section situation after 30hrs of labour, seven attempts at an internal monitor and seven different canula sites. Charlie had corkscrewed himself up in his umbilical cord Figures. The operation was a bit tits up too. The cut my bladder, I lost loads of blood and then they stapled over the top of stitches, some of which didn't take! I had an open wound and a new baby to breast feed. I was eleven weeks in recovery but I did it!

So here we are nearly two years on and we're pregnant again and I couldn't be happier.

So, on with the journal, I hope it's not too whingy.

Angelmouse

We'd been TTC for about a year having decided that we were both ready for the next one but we weren't being overly conscientious about it.

On the evening before Nigels birthday I realised that I should have had my period by now and decided that I ought to count my days. Having reached 44, I thought that perhaps it might be an idea to do a test. Since we had one left from a previous overdue entrance, I thought I'd do it the next morning. May 9th 2008

Happy Birthday Baby

I immediately phoned everybody I could think of that would be up at 7:30am! My Mum was so chuffed that she immediately phoned everybody whether or not they'd be up at 7:35am

I already had a doctors appointment but that wasn't for another 2weeks, on the 22nd. I phoned to try for an earlier one with no joy but the receptionist did say that Doc would want to see me. I stressed for a couple of days, convinced that I'd gotten it wrong or something would happen in between time. On the 13th I got my OH to buy me a second test; just to make sure. Of course it came up nice and strong and I believe that's when I joined the forum.

Through tears, stresses and gherkin munching we finally reached the 22nd. I was sure she was going to tell me that I wasn't pregnant at all and something horrible had happened instead but NO; everything is fine. I have my booking appointment for the 5th of June and she thinks that during the operation they might even be able to do something with the mess of skin left from the last one. OMG that would be SO good!

She even said congratulations.

It hasn't all been plain sailing mind you, I had a staining bleed at around 6wks but with some rest and TLC I was fine. Doc says it was probably Implantation but to take it easy. I have terrible trouble with my back and it's been really playing up since I got pregnant, even to the extent that we're going to have to get a new mattress. I even had to abandon my beliefs and buy an air bed for camping!

So that's me and my Bubble. We're very happy to be involved with such lovely and supportive people and I hope that my experiences might be of use to some of you.

charveyron

Lovely start to your journal - congrats on your h&h 9 months

Angelmouse

Ah thankyou sweetie.

Angelmouse

Oh dear me, do I feel pathetic this morning or what??!!

symptoms: Nausea-Headache-Backache-Woes

I had a lovely bath but then rather stupidly started looking in the mirror trying to imagine what my bump might look like. I'm now totally het-up having convinced myself that bump wont grow into the horrible overhang that I have left from the last section, instead growing underneath and pushing the excess outwards, making my baby bump look like some kind of hideous '80's monster prosthetic.

My GP has said that we should be able to get it sorted out during the C-section, which is good. Although me being me, I'm now feeling guilty; as if I'm only having another baby to get my tummy tuck for free. Silly girl.

Nigey has been lovely this morning. He gave me big cuddles and let me sob into his nice clean work shirt. I always seem to do this shit when he's trying to leave for work. We started looking at names this morning too. I'd like to give a girl a hippyish kind of name, something along the lines of Star or Rain. Predictably Nigel doesn't like the idea. We had this same trouble with Charlie, even down to the point that the anesthetist was the one to choose between Charlie and Jimmy, hence why we're starting so early.

So far we have Sam Richard for a boy and Bryony Maeve or Maeve Rain for a girl.

Last night I had a major craving for Porridge. But just any porridge wouldn't do, oh no, it had to be the porridge that they used to make us at a holiday camp I used to go to when I was a kid. It was gorgeous but sadly they never gave the receipe so I was forced to make do with redybrek. It was very lovely though.

So having had a crappy morning, I've decided that doing the bare minimum today will suffice and having decided this I am now free to browse on here all day!

I'm REALLY tired now all I want to do is sleep but I know that If I do so before Nigel phones he'll only wake me up. I had some lunch and although i enjoyed it it's made me feel sicky again.

I just want to go to sleep.

Angelmouse

I'm so lucky!

My son is cooking us a curry as we speak and my OH has just finished putting the baby to bed!

I've spent the day doing variations on NOTHING and even got to watch the Karate Kid. I love my boys.

I haven't had too much nausea today thankfully, just tiredness.

Had a craving last night for Irn-bru which OH presented me with when he got home from work, accompanied by a bunch of flowers and a packet of WF biscuits. Oh and a new box of cornflakes for my breakfast cravings.

I'm 9wks today and feeling fine!

Texted a friend of mine today as well to see how she's doing as she's also pg and she's absolutely fine too. Which is great.

Just looking forward to my booking appointment on Thursday now.

Angelmouse

Well, here we are on our way to week 10 and have I had a wakening or what?!!

I've been feeling fairly crapulous the last few days, getting het-up at every little twinge and using as an excuse, more or less, to be lazy!

I might be pregnant but there's no need to be pussy footing about as I have been. OK I had a very slight bleed and it did scare the shit out of me but my symptoms are strong and I haven't had anything since so...

After reading some of the other girls stories I feel quite ashamed. I have no right whatsoever to feel down or hard done by at all. I have two wonderful sons, a husband who loves me to pieces and to top it off we're having another baby! Where's the down huh?

So I've decided to stop being such a miserable cow and as of tomorrow, My life is back ON! Which works out well because I take Charlie to Baby group on a tuesday and we go for coffee with the girls afterwards. It's my entire social calendar.



Bring it ON!!!

So pregnancy wise, My waist is expanding already but not due to the bump. Although I didn't think I was being too naughty with the sugary treats. but I guess I'd better stop them altogether.

My boobs, OMG, they are getting so big. I think I'm going to have splash out on an Hcup before long. And the wind!!!

I thought something was wrong earlier and last night, I had such stomach ache. A big ripping fart made me feel a bit better but it just keeps building and I don't know which way it's going to go until it pops.

But none of that really matters because I'M HAVING A BABY!

Blob

Awwww awsome journal congrats!!

Angelmouse

I could Urinate as an olympic event!

You would not believe the ammount of times I've had to go pee today, and not to check the TP but to actually empty my poor over worked bladder!!!

My boobs are now officially trying thier hand at world domination and to that end I've decided to call them 'Pinky and The Brain'! I'm not sure which one is which yet as neither one has yet said, "Narf"! Stay tuned.

Went to Toddlers this morning, which was nice. Well in between the toilet breaks it was anyway. In the cafe they were cooking rice and it made me really hungry, until they brought out the Chilli to go with it. But I love Chilli! I am in fact a Chilli addict; True! I once eat nothing but Chilli for a whole week; Chilli & Rice, Chilli Nachos, Chilli Jacket...you get the idea. Now I can't even stomach the smell!!! What up wi' dat??!!

Anyway. I'm feeling a little LOONY today but it's alright He doesn't mind. I've got my booking appointment on Thursday...oh wait did I already say that? Hhmm stands a chance I'd say. I really want to get to the scan point now tbh, I just want to know that Bubble is OK. I remember getting really wound up before my 12wk scan with Charlie and the relief was palpable when his wriggly little self appeared on screen...for two seconds before he whizzed off somewhere else.

Actually that reminds me; I do hope Bubble isn't as physically active as Charlie was. Blimey it was exhausting then when I was fit and healthy. I reckon that would just about finish me off if Bubble's the same.

Oh well, I'm just jibbering now soI s'pose I best go and get some food. Dunno what tho, i dunno what i want...

Mervs Mum

Welcome to the journals!!

Wishing you a H&H 9 months!

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