i messed up my life for a while i just hope that me learning from my mistakes can help other people.
you shouldnt be worrying about these people as much as im sure you love and care for them itll only drag you down. there is only so long you can persevere with thankless love.
you have a little bundle thatll consume all your worries very soon!
i have no doubt in my mind that you will do anything in you power to prevent your child seeing the nasty side of this world, well i know everyone has to see the bad side but maybe not so young.

take care

Thanks, it's just so hard to let go of everything that you once knew. I keep trying to help them learn from my mistakes but they won't listen; sadly they're going to have to make their own and learn from them, it's just hard because alot of people don't get out of that trap, alot wind up dead or selling their bodies. That life was at one point everything I ever knew - for my whole life until just recently, it's a hard adjustment, but I know I'll live. Besides, the world has more beautiful things in it than bad, that's what I believe - It has to.

every things beautiful you look at it in the right way some may say.

it is hard but if they wont listen theyll end up trying to drag you down with them.

your a strong girl you'll do whats right :-)

Thanks - as are you, I can't believe you went through with 2 losses.. God I would have lost my mind, been a mentalpath, I really admire how strong a person you are. You're going to make a great mother, the best.

hehe mentalpath i like that!! i did go a bit nuts for a while i didnt leave the house for 6 months through fear that id see another pregnant person. but like all things you move on :-D

True true, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Wow young lady havent you come far?
Your story is so sad yet truly amazing and should give hope to all those people out there that have had such a rough life.
Your certainly mature for your age, your little one will be so proud when hes older.
I congratulate you on getting rid of you ex and sorting your life out, once your into drugs they really arent the easiest thing to stop using, you really have worked so hard.
You have the right to feel incredibly proud of yourself, well done! xx

Ooh, shit it's been a long ass day, and to top it off I think I'm coming down with a cold. My head throbs like there's no tomorrow and my stomach is so upset. Also I've been sleeping like a log, which is a good change from not sleeping at all. I've been wondering if all pregnant women at this stage have sleeping problems? I can only sleep for roughly 5 hours a night and then I'm awake, feel like I've slept all night, and of course it hits me later on at work. Kookum(my grandma) picked me up a body pillow today so hopefully that helps. Joseph has started kicking, well, moving, alot again. It's actually starting to get rather uncomfortable, his kicks and even his MOVEMENTS are getting hard because of his size. I'm guessing he's bigger than average, because when he boots me it almost knocks the wind out of me. I can already make out a little elbow or a little foot poking out of me and I'm only 26 + 1 pregnant. I'm really tired though, I'll write more tomorrow.
Night.

Hope you slept well Mary.

x

Hey,hope Joseph let his mom sleep tonight...

Nice new pic in your avatar,very random but I love your shirt...