HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME........ Yesterday I turnt another year older I am now a very grown up as people say 19years old. The day went by so quickly I couldn't believe it but I will be celebrating further with my OH this weekend and with friends next week.
I'm 10+2 today and I am very anxious as my 12week stage is just under 2 weeks away! My hormones have been playing around with me and every so often I have a moment of just wanting to cry. This happened on my birthday yesterday which I hoped it wouldn't but it's out of my control. I just held it in and tried to breathe for a minute or two. I'm in need of constant reassurance and I'm finding it quite hard to be patient now. I know I've done it for this long so far but my anxiousties have come back again. I feel like I need some kind of therapy to keep me thinking positive as my last experience has really had an impact on me. I haven't told many people about this pregnancy and I'm just at a bursting stage now. I want my 12week scan and see my babies heart beating so I can just let it out. I have a hospital appointment on 20th May and I can't wait.
It's 10 DAYS UNTIL MY HOSPITAL APPOINTMENT! and I'm counting down!!!

Ok today I have a midwife appointment. I only made it yesterday as I feel like theres more that should have been done for me by now so I no longer think I'll be seeing my doc anymore. I still haven't got a date for my 12 week scan and I feel like theres some things that need sorting so I thought I would take control and make a m/w appointment. I'm looking forward to it but I find just before my appointments I get really nervous incase I get bad news(imagination runs away with me). I will update later when I get back how it went.......... Oh and I am 10+5 today!!!!!!!

Oh My Gosh! I had my first m/w appointment and it was the most amazing experience ever! She did the usual check ups blood pressure and urine. I told her about my belly and she decided to have a look. Not expecting to feel much she had a feel and felt a good bit of baby. She believes I'm further along maybe within the 12-14 week stage but at least 12. This made her want to try and see if she could pick up the heartbeat and after a few attempts(by this time I had to hear it) she found it. MY BABIES HEARTBEAT!!! She said it was a very strong heartbeat and that it's unlikely I am in my 10th week. I am on !!! I can't stop smiling. I wish my OH was there but I really thought nothing major would happen so told him not to come. From this point onwards we vowed he will never miss another appointment.
IT IS 7 DAYS UNTIL MY HOSPITAL APPOINTMENT!!!!! YIPPPPPEY!!!

WOW that will be cool if your a little further on that you think eh? You'll be skipping right over to 2nd tri in a flash!!

Bet it was so nice to know that she could hear a heartbeat!!

I am 11+6 today I can't quite believe it. I am happy but not as happy as I thought I would be. I'm still feeling quite anxious. I had my 1st hospital appointment yesterday and everything went well. I finally have a date for a scan it is this week Friday!!!!!!!! I am soooo happy about that and I really can't wait for it to come. I'm really happy I don't have to wait long and that it's this week as there would be no way I could wait until next week. So it's official May 23rd is the day I will see my baby! I think as soon as that day comes I will relax alot more and finally feel like this pregnancy is really happening. Slowly more people are finding out and I feel slight relief coz I don't have to think of any more excuses for not drinking alcohol and why I seem 'not myself' but at the same time I'm anxious cause I haven't had a scan yet so it hasn't been confirmed in 'black and white' that everythings ok. So I keep getting conflicting feelings. I think I'm a little scared to get attached to the idea until I see the baby. Not long now though only 2 nights sleep away!!! It certainly can't come quick enough.
Changes in my body: I am feeling more stretching type pains in my private areas and my stomach and boobs are itching more which I have read means they are growing.

Good luck at scan tomorrow hun

I am 13+3 today and it's crazy. When I look back I can remember looking at girls at this stage I thinking I can't wait to be there. Well now I am and it's great. I am in reaching distance of getting to the 2nd tri. I will be sooooo happy when I'm there. Times not going tooo slowly I'm just trying not to think about it too much because I've seen the bubba and I know he/she is doing good. I took one of my pics to the camera shop yesterday and had it blown up to standard 6x4 and it looks amazing. I use that camera shop all the time and they did a brilliant job on it. I will be sticking that up by my bed tonight(as soon as I find the blu tack). They asked me if that was my bubba and I said yes and they commented on how clear my pic came out. I am really lucky, the quality of my pics were amazing I made sure I bought a good few so I could have a range just incase.
I have practically finished with college now only have 2 exams to do and that's it for me I put my feet up. I haven't bought anything for bubba yet I'm not quite ready just yet. When my bump grows more and I feel more pregnant I'll get into the swing of things. For now I'll just concentrate on saving.

I'm 13+4 and today I'm feeling like total crap. I have a cold and sore throat in full force! I feel so run down and I am just not in the mood to do anything. I have been really lazy this week and haven't done much at all. I do the and if I can stretch to it I try and do some . I wonder if maybe the cold was laying dormant in my body and that's why I've been really slow this week or maybe I'm just pregnant and need to rest. I wouldn't say I've been very productive at all but I suppose there's plenty of time for that right? I've had some honey and lemon and that helped almost straight away but I still feel very groggy. My poor fish tank needs a new filter and the pet shops only up the road but I just can't bring myself to walk up the road. I try my best when I do go out to right a list of everything I need to do, so that I only have to make one trip out in a day. Everything needs to be written down as I've become somewhat forgetful with this pregnancy. I just hope to get better soon because even though I know it's not a serious illness I still worry about bubba with me being like this but I've researched and know bubba is fine.