Uvlollypop

hiya im moving over here from ttc, i have been ttc for a while after have a m/c at 29 weeks and another at 12. As you can imagine this BFP means a hell of alot.

i found out for sure yesterday afternoon, i got an extremely faint test last week but denied that it was positive for my own head although i was feeling very nauseas faint and dizzy with lack of interested in food. i was convinced it was ttc desperation making my head play tricks on me.

yesterday morning the smell of toothpaste made me vomit like nothing i have felt in a long time - i was waiting for a delivery of opks and hpts due today, we were trying to hold out on testing untill then- i got my oh to go to sainsburys to buy a test i felt so sick and awful i needed to know if i was pregnant because it was either that or there was something wrong with me!

before i could even put the stick down and flush the loo there was two lines, i was so thrilled i was shaking!

from past pregnancy s i have learnt that im one of these wonderfully sick people, which is fun. im finding it really hard to eat anything.

this morning so far ive managed to force down on slice of plain toast that was after being sick.

i am yet to go to my doctor, my actual doctor is away untill tommrrow so ill get in there then, im hoping to get early scans this time for my own peace of mind i honestly dont know if ill manage to cope if i lose this one too.

anyways heres to 9 months of journaling

x

Laura1984

i'm so excited 4u! i was telling Jim all about you last night lol.
i've got my 12 week (yes its late!) scan tomorrow & i'm so nervous. i hope you get your early scans xxxx

SpecialGift89

It's good to see you here and I hope everything goes well and you get that early scan you want. Congrats once again(put it in another thread also)!

Uvlollypop

thanks ladys :-) i hope your scan goes well

x

Kellz

Congrats on your bfp hun =)

Uvlollypop

god emotions are high i feel so down i cant stop crying i dont know what to do with myself

goldlion

congratulations on your BFP! have a happy and healthy nine months

Uvlollypop

im very hormonal and finding all this a bit strange i cant quite settle in to the 'im pregnant' mind set, oh is over the moon im just sick with worrie

Uvlollypop

im finding this very weird, im somewhat detached from the situation.

i dont want to allow myself to get into the pregnancy incase i lose it which is very silly because i should be enjoying it after all i begged for this to happen.

i cant think to myself ooo theres a baby in my belly because its too early and something might happen.
am i going to feel like this the whole way through?

when am i going to feel safe enough to enjoy my pregnancy even if i am feeling sick and gassy i refuse to complain about it but it dont feel real, i feel like all the sickness and pos tests are in my head, i wish losing my other babies hadnt screwed me up so much clearly its going to have a negitive impact on this and futre pregnancys.

god im a silly cow.
im going to the doctors today, fingers crossed ill get an early scan.

luvbunsazzle

Congrats hunn on the bfp. The best luck in the world on getting that early scan, and hoping it puts your mind at ease a little that yes you are pregnant. I understand fully why you dont want to believe it's real, but relax and take it easy. Enjoy your pregnancy.