i do seem to have all the same symptoms as last time just 100% worse (last time i was in hospital for sickness etc) this time ive been so ill that my wicked step mum thought it was twins.

i figure as long as im sick the babys still making me hormonal so its a goood sign

I dont think Ive said it anywhere else - congrats on your BFP! You sound like you've had an awful time before and I can totally understand why you're so nervous.

Hope you feel better soon *hugs* I have to say, I do NOT miss morning sickness at all.

xxx

at the moment its morning sickness thats keeping me going cause i know stuffs still happening! thank you :-D

does the worrying ever stop

x

hehe my camera came today its pink<3 happy times

I think worrying about bonding with your little bean and the rug being pulled from under you, is more of the old defense mechanism again. You know that life can be and is cruel.
I have a good feeling about this pregnancy for you. xxx

thanks mervsmum, its really hard to throw myself into it because i know just how fast things can be taken away!

im trying to enjoy it as much as i can but it is very very hard.

i dont feel as sick today/this morning i feel a bit wobbley but im ok, i need to tidy up the flat today i went on a making spree to make a nice card for james's mums birthday(sunday) so theres kinda stuff everywhere the cats are using my craft boxes as spring boards!

im waiting in today for next to come pick up their poor excuse for an e cup bra and deliver their probably tiny aa cup bras!

i had to do some covert peeing in a test tube this morning, i must say i seem to be getting quite good at it! im going to the docs today at 540 to find out what the letter about test results was all about.

my cat is prowling around with a toy mouse in his mouth pretending to be a tiger he is very very cute!

hey lollypop - me and tom are ok today thanks! We got home and I went straight to bed to catch up on that sleep i missed last night. Tommy has been thankfully a bit more gentle today and i just treated myself to a chocolate muffin

I feel a bit more normal now and am getting anxious about needing to pack to move in just over a week! Where do you start when you are on your own??

How did it go at the docs? Your cats sound adorable. My life would be so empty without my little monster to constantly slap me inthe face when I have been in bed too long!

I take it next isnt the place to buy the larger bra then? I might give that a miss on your recommendation - need to find some nice nursing bras!

dont ever order bras from next ever ever ever! i got some e cup bras that didnt fit so i figured if get some ffcups, they got delivered today and they were awful, the ffcup bras came up tiiiny so im suck with another day in a sports bra!! gaah

my doctors um well it turned out that my midwife let my blood samples go bad before she sent them off, she also wrote my DOB wrong so i have to go in for them again on wednesday great!!

ive moved too many times on my own i just throw stuff in boxes/bags and hope for the best.

thats all im doing right now hoping for the best.

ive been really fed up today i have actually done nothing, im frustrated with myself, im finding it really hard to do anything im either fed up or being ill.
i suppose itll pass at some point.

some people know about my noisy neighbour, he got sectioned, now i have a twat upstairs playing drum and bass so loud it makes my fish tank water jiggle.

what the hell is the matter with people? nobody cares about anyone else these days

What a sucky day you have had!! sorry about your neighbour - are you planning on moving any time soon? You dont need that kinda stress!

Your MW should know better than to let yur blood go off! what are docs and people up to these days?? Why is everyone so uncompetant. When the morning sickness is all over and you have grown a bit, doing nothing all day will become complete bliss! I only ever visit family, shop and sort out stuff. I will be so thankful of it when tom comes! Then i wont get a moment's peace.

When i had morning sickness there were days when i couldnt get out of bed and my mum had to literally drag me out. Wish i could stay in bed all day now - although i did get up at 18:00 today - but i was out all morning!

Just drove out to collect a baby changing unit from a seller on ebay - she was sooo lovely and had the cutest kids. She gave me a sleeping pod from her own business and it was so nice! I feel all happy now!

Hope your evening has improved! Do you live on your own or with a oh?