I was so worried for you last night, glad your beautiful blob is doing so well xxx

Yay!!! I know exactly what that feels like! Amazing isnt it! I am so glad blob has a heartbeat!

Dont worry about your period pains, they are normal in the first trimester for some woman. I had them so bad the doctors thought i was ectopic, but I was fine.

Now time to stop stressing and start sleeping like you never slept before and chucking up for england!

Congratulations and good luck for the rest of the journey. i am sure you will be fine!

Now i am gonna get my arse out of bed (it is gone 16:00) and go buy myself some comfort food! Fancy something like icecream and maybe a brownie!

yay for comfort food! i wish i could eat properly right now the chucking for england started a while ago the wonderful joys of pregnancy!

ive been mega tired today and i have had heartburn mmm tastey!

i cant get the image on the little heartbeat flickering on the screen out of my head! im starting to bond with this baby inside me and that scares me because what is so freely given can be cruely snatched away and im not sure im strong enough for that again.

YAY!! Mollys bean is growing big and strong!
well done little blob for making your mummy so happy today!!
So pleased for all of you!
xxx

It is the bonding and the love you feel that makes you strong and able to cope with anything - which you can do. Optimism - although hard helps us deal with these things and even helps the baby - as he feels your stress.

You have little reason to be afraid this time, so embrace the little miracle happening inside you. Everything happens for a reason and the babies you have lost are not the same as the baby that needs you now. You will drive yourself insane and have a pregnancy from hell if you don't let the past go.

Hold on to that flicker of hope and it should be a little wriggler in 10 weeks time. Don't be afraid! You have already come so far!

Hello Sweetpea, just sneaking in to see how things are going.

hey neyney! thins are going well:-)

i know i should embrace and enjoy this and i am trying, its getting a little easier each day, especially not i can see my body starting to change its making it real and the scan proved that it wasnt all in my head!

i got a letter through this morning from my doctors, asking me to provide a urine sample because of the results of my booking in bloods. i dont know if i should be worried.. :-S

sickness has been so bad in the last few days i have been rendered useless i cant do anything apart from puke and sleep, its dead sexy!

another thing thats dead sexy my boobs are sore and getting bigger, i have been finding sleeping really uncomfy so i dug out my old sports bra from where i used to go to the gym (ha yes i know funny i did actually used to work out) and slept in that oh my gosh so much better!!

so when you go for the 1st appointment with the midwife i know they'll go all thro ur life history and the OH'S but do they do any actual tests like,

scans
or internal tests? Im no good at them i cry geting my smear done.

x

You sound like you are going through exactly what I did at the beginning - it was because I had seriously high levels of hormones. Hopefully this means good! Bloody horriable though isnt it? My sports bra became my best friend!

ive already been to the midwife the letter was about a dodgey urine sample in the end, the women on the phone said my lab test wasnt suitable but thi thing is my test didnt go to the lab my midwife gave it back to me to re use the pot

the internal scan wasnt as bad as i thought it would be no where near as bad as a smear i bit uncomfy but ok