i live with my oh james, he is at work all day, im signed off of work due to depression- after skye died i went a bit looupy-

we are trying to move, to rent around here is so expensive i have to hope with moving via the council so im trying to get on housing association lists its very tricky you have to fit in to a certain category.
the only people that are being moved are those fleeing violence, there just isnt any housing anymore.

there is a bungalow of sale in a nicer part of milton keynes near ohs mums we might poke out heads in and see if its at all poss that we could try get on the property ladder

well we can dream

im like a round peg in a square hole!

so we are both bored and not working!

I know how you feel about housing! Down here it is ridiculous. i sold my first house when last year and am back to paying £9,000 a year in rent! You should get something from the council with baby on the way tho - but you will have to really kick up a fuss about yur noisy neighbour or they will just leave you where you are. stupid council!

What happened with skye do you mind me asking?

ive exhausted my options with the council, i have more chance of growning another leg than gettin rehoused via them.

Skyela died at 29weeks, i had a hard pregnancy lots of problems suspected S.b i went for a growth scan and her heart had just stopped i had to give birth three days later.

that is so heart breaking

do they know much about the SB? Was it a bad and what caused her heart to stop?

I am sure you will be fine this time

Let me say once again, Congratulations on your BFP! I can't imagine how hard it would have been to lose two babies and can certainly understand how nervous you may be for this baby. I believe everything will be ok!

Wishing you a healthy and happy pregnancy!

I would like to make a point that you must be a very very very strong individual. I hold you in the highest respect, losing two wonderful babies and being able to go through it all again with a heart filled with love amazes me. You are deeply envied and I hope you remember that. Good luck with the pregnancy, and congratulations on your BFP.

i didnt want to panic you hun i hope that i haven't, it wasnt my intention. i had a really tough pregnancy i spent most of my time in hospital for extreme sickness. i had my triple test done at 15weeks, the downs came back fine the S.b/ Alpha fetal protein came back t 7.5 which as you prob know is quite high. i went for a scan at 17weeks and her spine looked completely fused but it looked like she had fluid on the brain, and she had really really long legs and what appeared to be twisted feet almost. i had a bleed at 19weeks had a scan, fluid on the brain had seemed to sorted itself out. i was told that everything was fine but to keep my growth scan anyways, had my 28 week growth scan her head was too low too see and there was shadowing on the brain so i came back 2 days later to be scanned by a consultant and she was dead, the shadowing on her brain looked like it might have been a bleed. i was induced and gave birth dead on 29weeks three days after the last scan to the most perfect beautiful baby girl.

i refused an autopsy cause at the time i wasnt strong enough to deal with the thought of her being cut up so i got no definite cause of death and it was stated on the death certificate as suspected abnormal cranial anatomy.

ow thank you leeanne and mBLACK,but im not a strong person though very far from it i survived an horrific year but that doesn't make me strong that makes me a surviver. its human nature to take what life throws at us and get on with it.

im feeling sick and tired today and its only 915am too ill te eat but im sure toast will make me feel better :-S im in limbo!!

You haven't scared me. i was just wondering whether SB might have been to blame - as the higher the spinal defect, the more likely it is to effect organs. A friend of mine had a baby with it on her neck and the doctor said she wouldnt live, so she delivered early and she did die too.

I can't imagine what you must have gone through. You are an incredibly strong person like the girls above said and you are being very brave. But your braveness will be rewarded and i think you are going to have the most beautiful baby girl! Don't know why that is!

If you ever fancy a chat or something cus you are down or bored let me know - you can msn me or something!

ow thanks hun, your the first to guess the sex!

im so ill today i have pretty much slept all morning i feel sea sick its not fun!