5 + 3 today as of this entry. Tuesday I'll be at 6 weeks, which will be nice.

Work is awful right now. DH has this weekend off, but I have to work... and he works nights right now and I work days, so I see him at best a few hours a day. AND someone was very nasty to me as soon as I got on shift this morning, and I got all teary eyed (feeling very vulnerable lately). Three hours 'til I get to go home and see DH, which will be very nice. And only two weeks until we get a weekend together (with coordinating schedules). Woo hoo!

Umm, okay, thoughts for right now: I really wish I was later on in my pregnancy. Felt massive nausea for about twenty minutes this morning after I had a really wonderful nectarine... and shortly thereafter wanted to heave. Felt fine otherwise, but my breasts are SO SORE that I can't put weight on them when I'm sleeping or I'll wake up from the pain. Plus nasty stretchmarks are coming in, which I'd hoped to be done with in highschool. Bleh. Here's hoping the cocoa butter works.

But anyway. I wish I was farther along so I could: A -- get my first scan, B -- quit worrying so darn much, and C -- start showing. Mostly A and B, though. Right now I feel so much on pins and needles.

Still having crazy dreams. Dreamt I went to jail where I was beaten with wooden paddles until I miscarried (!). Very unpleasant stuff, there. That's what I get for taking dream revenge on Paris Hilton for pelting me with dead rabbits (don't ask).

Just been Reading all ya journal...i know what ya mean about wanting to be further along lol....and u must really stop worrying about misscarage did u no once u hit 6 weeks theres between 2-4percent out of 100 of m/c which is very low.....i no u red that 50-60% first pregnancys end in m/c really early but if thats happend to us or anyone it was prob that early we jus assumed it was af.
As i keep gettin told once ya have that baby everyone misses being preggers lol soo enjoy it whilst ya can
as for me i still not even herd from a midwife i havnt even been assigned one yet the only person ive sen is the doctor to tel them i was preggers and they didnt even confirm that lol anyways just wanted to wish ya luck x x x x x x
and a happy and healthy 9 months x x x x x

hiya i was just reading your journal and i have done the opk thing too your not alone lol

So today marks the 6th week! Yay!

Developments so far -- the PMS cramping I've had for the past couple of weeks has vastly subsided, where I might get a twinge every other day. Breasts are still tender, nipples are still sore, and DH is still happy as a clam that they are getting bigger. The worst new development? Morning sickness. Bleh!

I thought that I'd be okay since I haven't felt very sick at all. Until today, that is. I don't know if it's what I had for lunch (spicy shrimp w/ noodles and veg), but I spent the entire afternoon-night feeling like I was going to heave. To make it worse, the ladies bathroom at work smells like a mixture of sweat, vanilla air freshner, and a month-old unflushed toilet. In a word: disgusting. So I've had to pee like six times while I was at work, and everytime I went into the bathroom I wanted to heave. So, so nasty.

It seems to be coming in waves, which is weird... one minute I'll feel like running for the bathroom (well, maybe not the stinky bathroom), and the next I'll feel okay. Ugh. I hope I'm better tomorrow.

Oooh, another good thing -- it's April, the month of the ultrasound!!!! Wooo!!!! I am so seriously hyped up about this. I really, really want everything to go well this month, and for the u/s to show that my little bean is healthy and happy. It kind of gets to me that it's heart is beating already. I can picture it now....

Can't wait until I'm far enough along to use a doppler!

Ohhh, and good to know I'm not the only OPK using pregnant freak out there! It's fun!

it sounds like your getting on really well :-) U/s are so wonderful i cant wait to hear how yours goes!

we are currently bidding on a doppler on ebay! they are great little things

im also getting the sick waves

isnt it fabulous!!

:S

Just a quick entry -- 6 and 4 today, which makes me happy. I'm so close to seven, I can taste it (and it tastes like victory -- yum)!

Sickness has not been nearly as bad today, though my breasts still ache like a mutha. I'm just mainly happy because I get this weekend off, though I was originally scheduled to work. It helps to just be at home relaxing to take my mind off of all of my fears (there are lots). I mean, I realize if something bad happens it is out of my control... so it drives me crazy. Ahh, well. Just a little over 3 weeks 'til the first scan... if I can hold out 'til then, I'll be a happy camper.

Tomorrow is 7 -- hooray!

Less hooray is the fact that I can't seem to sleep through the night. I woke up this morning at 1:20 feeling hot and sick to my stomach, and couldn't get back to bed 'til 3:45. And today at work we had this terribly boring briefing, which I only managed to stay awake through by fantasizing about the baby.

So anyway, my scan is less than three weeks from today! I am so psyched! I'm really just crossing my fingers and praying that nothing bad happens. I think the longer everything is normal, the more my hopes are lifted. I realize bad things can happen, but... I know I'm close to 8 weeks, which is a (kind of) dropping off point for miscarriages, at least by a little. So that helps.

I guess I just really, really, really want to see the bean already. I am SO impatient! I want to see the little heart beat and know that everything is healthy and proper, so I can relax and not panic over every little symptom or lack thereof, and just BREATHE. Whew. So yeah, the 28th can not come soon enough!!!

Oh, quick note that made me happy -- I had loads of blood work taken a few weeks ago, and have heard nothing back about it. Which I can't help but think is a good thing! If there were problems with the HCG levels, I'm sure they'd call to draw more blood. No news is good news!

7 + 1 today, and I have definitely had better days.

I slept terribly last night, kept waking up for various reasons, so I was super sleepy today. I miss being able to sleep completely through the night! Anyway, I got up late and had to skip my shower. Got to work for a super boring meeting, went to lunch, and fell asleep. Ohhh, and I woke up 20 minutes after I was supposed to be back and work!!!! I got chewed out for that one, and I felt so bad I had to really concentrate to stop from crying, though I was tearing up for twenty minutes afterward. Grr, how embarrassing. I have been so super emotional lately, crying at stupid sappy stuff or at things I would never cry at before, and it's so frustrating!

Umm, and I ate some pizza last night and have suffered for it all morning with terrible nausea. Lunch was some saltines and applesauce, which didn't help but at least didn't exacerbate it. So far, I have felt sick, tired, weepy, and dirty (physically) today. OH, and to top it all off, my husband somehow managed to lock his housekeys into our mailbox! That was the second time in 24 hours that he lost them (though last time, they were just in the laundry hamper)! I am going to tease him mercilessly!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Sigh* I am sick of morning sickness. I can't wait 'til the second trimester.

Two weeks 'til the ultrasound!!!!!

im glad things are going well :-D