5 wks 2 days

Still feel the same really...mild movements in abdomen from time to time...boobs really ting-a-ling-a-linging....

For the past few days have been googling mad things and imagining symptoms eg- Ectopic Pregnancy...
Thoughts about ectopic still lingering...although have stopped googling...and my Dad simply just said, 'too much info can be dangerous sometimes darling', and my Dad is always right!!! So am sort of better about my psycho weirdo ectopic negativity....
Just want April 2nd to come fast...so I can see heartbeat....
Come on April 2nd!!!!!

5 Weeks 5 Days

Boobs now throbbing lol...got mild AF like feelings today, but not uncomfortable...
Felt abit sick before...and actually felt happy as the hormones are acting how they should...
I am really symptom watching coz of mc last year....

I am feeling abit more optimistic...only 2 weeks to my scan! I cannot wait!!!!!!
Can you believe I have to be there at 8am...hmmmm...??

Over and Out

Those AF pains yesterday were the start of a mc.
Went to the loo before bed and when I wiped it was brown....then this morning it turned to dark red...enough to wear a panty liner.
I rang my EPU and they asked me to come in at 12noon so they could test my HCG levels...

I was in complete shock coz I still have all the symptoms...and if you see my entry yesterday, I thought they were heightened!!!!

So Midwife rang me today and told me my HCG levels were too low for the pregnancy to continue...
So am going to have to endure the natural passing over the next couple of days....I did this last year, so I know what to expect (Paracetamol and surfboards at the ready)!!!!
Will probably happen over night or tomorrow!?

Hey, but I am ok!!! I will just get back on the horse quicker than last year!!! I know I will have a baby number 2!!!! I can see myself with 2 children- I am kinda weird like that!!!
I look at my Grace and thank the Lord for her...but say 'hey, you...my God...will you give her a brother or sisiter already!!!!'....he has got to listen to my nagging one day!!!!

So hopefully, next time I write in my journal, it will be to say that I have a sticky bean....

Take care everyone! xxxx

OMG hunni. Im so so so so sorry....i dont no what to say, i really dint expect to read what i jus red if you ever wana talk jus pm me kk take care babes x x x x x x x x

Oh bloody hell hun I am so flippin sorry

I have sooooo much admiration for you, your attitude is amazing, teaches me a thing or too about getting down when I get Af that's for sure.

Well my thoughts are with you hunni, make sure you rest and look after yourself. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Oh Cat!! NO!!! Im so sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I should know what to say, being in the same boat, but I dont. Im smack in the middle of the 'natural passing' bit too, I guess, and im in quite a bit of pain physically too... and emotionally, despite my blah di blah, I've been crying all day...
But, I'm going to try to copy your attitude!
We'll be back in TTC together, next bullseye wins!!

a musical term for you.....

Never B-sharp
Never B-flat
Always B-natural

Bless you sweety. I agree with you though...keep nagging at god for a little bro or sis for your little one....x

Catster... you sound very strong but still sending you hugs....

x x x