Soontobe

Sooooo thought I should probably type some stuff up..kinda like a new years resolution thing, then later I can look back and laugh lol

Anyways about two weeks ago I was really sick. Like dizzy and the whole 'im going to chuck, but theres no chuck' lol and after my last pregnancy i just knew exactly what it was. Tested and got a BFN.
Waited a week later.. and got a positive..
Re-tested on xmas day, scared shitless because i just wanted it to be there sooo badly..meanwhile my family is upstairs waiting for me..lol i was like "just give me 3minutes!" and it was positive.. christmas day i told my best friend who has been so utterly helpful for years now, she was estatic..
Told my mum on boxing day..didnt really go down well..after that i was a bit down and confused..im actually staying with her at the moment and she said "you know you still have to move out within 3 weeks"...i just thought it was so rude... ive had no happiness from her since..
Tash (the good friend) is sooo happy for me, Im so glad she is going to be there for me.. Cant wait.

27th Dec
Went to Doctors, swear i was in and out with 5 minutes...
She ordered bloods, which i did immediately after, and an ultrasound so confirm dates

28th Dec
Went to ultrasound before work.. saw the little sac and it measured 5weeks 1day, but was told it was too early for much more just yet and that i could come back in a few weeks to confirm growth and dates etc...
..asked what one of the big black blobs she was measuring up and she said "oh hun thats your water retention, your already holding 450ml" i was like..." excuse me? thats like half a ltr!"
Thats a crazy amount of water to be holding..:S
Oh well...water is good right?

1st Jan
Woke up shit today..was a little scared, so i took another pg test and of course it was positive, kinda lifted my spirits a little.. but spend most of the day lazy, watching tv, and eating... here's to waking up feeling good tomorrow..

Soontobe

02 Jan

I want another u/s NOW..i want to know everything is ok and growing, im going to go in and see if i can just pay for one out of my own pocket.. I know that sounds harsh and bad probably but ive just had one of those days..
I got soo tired this afternoon, i had to sit down and pretend to do something (my job is on your feet all day one)..but i am the boss so its ok in a way lol

Looked on ebay today.."accidently" bidded on some stuff

Going to go see if i can get another scan tomorrow afternoon

Soontobe

09/01 Jan


Went for another u/s today and was kind of excited but then deflated when i didnt get to see much.
annnd to top it off im watching an episode of house thats have fetal problems...ahhh :s
I left work early after the u/s, just couldnt go back and work away, and the fact that i would have been by myself tonight didnt help..
i have a major headache and feel like i could sleep for days...

im pretty worried...