smileycelerys

i know me and my bean need the calories but im still having to fight with myself over guilt from eating and im only eating a healthy amount. to be honest i dont hink im even getting my full 2000 cals a day, yet i still get so guilty about eating. i selfharmed about it the other day which sucks as i hadnt done it for a while, well not scine i found out i was preg, i feel like im letting myself, my baby and my OH down.

o0oCharlieo0o

your trying your hardest and that is the main thing im sure you arent letting anyone down hun, as long as you are trying that is the important part, it must be really hard for you and i really hope your feeling better about it soon xx

Blah11

I've gained 7lbs so far It does balance out b/c I gained ALL of that in the first few weeks and haven't gained anymore in the last month and a half. Don't worry you can always lose it when the baby comes.

smileycelerys

found out that my first calc of weight gain was wrong and that my weight had only gone up to 10st 6 not 10st 12. miss heard midwife, im about to start my second trimester on sat, but even though ive only gained 2 pounds, im still fighting to eat a normal amount, infact im still under eating, im crying a lot because of it and at times blamming the baby for not being able to do anything about wanting to lose weight. i suck