I had this amazing dream last night; that I had to write it down. I dreamed I gave birth to a healthy baby boy, the birth was perfect, everything I had wanted. I had a natural water birth, the midwifes were amazing, they made everything I wanted to happen, happen. I remember how badly I wanted to breast-feed, I had a lot of help but full of a lot of doubt. The feeling of the baby latch was amazing, I felt amazing. I could do something that I feared I couldn't. I remember ringing Jess, and Kelly for advice because I was so full of doubt, full of 'How do I...' 'What if...' questions. And the fear for me not succeeding at breast-feeding is very real. I remember how calm he was, how relaxed just happy. His face was full of happiness. He didn't get a name in the dream because Robert and I could not agree on one. I tried to convince him on Thomas, Elijah or Alexander, and he wasn't sure. I wish I could describe the feelings in the dream, the feelings were that intense. I know in the dream he came full term, and that was fantastic.
