This week has not been that good. I want to wake up one morning and feel good, just for one full day, I know ti will be all worth it, it's just that it is exhausting.

Feeling sick really caught up with me, haven't actually been sick, just that feeling that if you burp you'll hurl, you stand up, you might hurl, you sit, you feel like you might hurl. I have been absolutely knackered as well, so tired, yet I wake at 2 ish every night for the toilet run but then I wake at 6ish and can't get back to sleep. I want to sleep, I'm tired.

Plus OH mother is staying with us, should have beenTues, Wed, Thurs and home today but she's now staying till Sunday!! I want my house back!!!!! it's only 1 bedroom so she sleeps on the settee that turns into a bed. She's a good cook, but the kitchen is always a mess and she always leaves the dishcloth or spongve wet through in the sink, papers here and there, she smokes like a frickin chimney (my OH smokes, but it doesn't really bother me, plus he tends to leave the room), she just p-uffs away after telling me to look after myself!!!!!

I feel better today, a little, tired, just had some food, yummy, went down well, but I feel down plus I don't think it's helping that I don't feel pregnant. Boobs are sore, tired, pants have top button open (although quite funny leaving the dinner hall, zip came down and jeans were almost round ankles!!!Could have been embarrassing!), just feel nothing. I shouldn't have looked at the belly page, I think cause I'm feeling a lttle down, I felt left out and that maybe my baby isn't growing properly and that's why my bellys not showing yet, etc etc etc etc bla bla bla!!!

I've been having silly thoughts, like I know a few have, about being a mum, do I know what to do, when do I knwo when to feed baby, where in the cot to sleep, stupid thigns I know the answer to but this time it's me and not a friends baby or family baby, this is me and my responsibility. It is very scary.

I am also missing family and friends, Mothers day on Sunday, dad has an op next week, my mates ........ well my mates are a big part of my life and I miss them. One bonus is that my OH seems to be a lot better. Not so much doom and gloom that we can't afford a baby at the mo and we have no roof over our head, etc. After telling my family and seeing the support we will get and telling his mum (who is chuffed), he seems more caring, happier, more concerened about how I feel, it's nice, I needed it. It's still not great, work is very very quiet and being self employed, bringing a baby into the world without a steady income is very daunting.

Another bonus is that both my sisters now have Skype and the other day I saw my little 1 year old niece walking unaided for the first time. It was great, she waffles away in her own little language and you can't help but listen. Brilliant.

It's just not a good week, nothing I do at the mo seems to make me feel better. Plus, tonight is Midsummer Murders and M in L will probably talk all the way through because she can't be bothered reading the subtitles, I missed the final episode of Alias on Tuesday cause she was smokign that much I was wheezing and the repeat is on tomorrow night at 11 by which time she will want to go to bed. AGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I want to scream!

poor you!! it sounds like you are having a rough time at the moment!! Not sure how I would cope if I had my mother in law staying with me!!

I constantly feel hungover at the moment do you feel like that? just head is sooo fuzzy and to be honest I think my brain has been removed which is scary as my boss keeps looking at me funny when I answer him and its cos I come out with the wrong name or wrong company doh! usually I am on the ball!! they don't know am pg yet so hoping everything is ok with scan next friday so I can tell them the following week so hope they understand then!!

I also feel the same as you like will I make a good mum, am I patient, will I know what to do when baby arrives etc etc - I guess this is completely normal and am sure we will learn and quickly!!

Can't you say to your mother in law you are looking forward to watching your programmes tonight and hope she takes the hint?!! or when she talks to you just nod or shake your head to make it obvious you would rather watch your programmes than listen to her!!

Also would say is there any chance she can go outside and smoke!! the smell of it at teh moment makes me want to be sick so don't know how you coping!!

Bring on sunday.....!!

xxxx

Bless you... as said above, the smell of smoke makes me wanna hurl, so how you are coping with that is a miracle. She sounds like a selfish so and so if you ask me. Especially if you have concerns over the growth of your baby, and she Smokes around you ???!!!!! Unbelievable.
Definitely roll on Sunday. It's your home, and theres only so 'accomodating' that you can be. Take Care. Things will look up soon, I promise

Bless you Sweetheart! It's a crazy time and I think you are feeling just as many other women all over the world do at this point - that doesnt make you feel much better I know but you're not alone and we all pretty much understand where you're coming from.
Not long til the MIL is gone and you'll get your house and routine back then .
xx

Constant hangover but cheaper!!!! And at least I'll get somethin fantastic at the end of it!! As for saying wrong things, I can get away with that, scatty blonde (not really but comes in useful to cover your tracks or get off lightly sometimes).

Cheers guys. She's not a bad egg, just a pain in the arse!!! Sometimes. When my OH says it's smoky then you know it is. Last night OH went out for coffee and he said his mum says if I want to watch anythign on TV then there's no problem, but I had an early night and did a few sodukus in bed.

She tried to be helpful, but I guess she's set in her ways as are we. My OH is very house proud (one HUGE bonus) and he gets sick of cleaning up after her. She's going through a rough patch at the mo, lost her job, then couldn't get work through a back problem, now she's gonna move up our way so looking at an apartment on Sunday cause she's not moving in with us yet!!!

We are building a house this year, a small house attached will be for her, like a small bungalow. Both me and OH said we couldn't live with her full time and this was the only solution. Will we cope, I don't know yet. Here in BG, this is the norm, take care of parents which is a great thing to do, but we're only 38!!!! I just have image of her coming into our house cause she's lonely. Believe me this won't last long cause even my OH won't stand for it.

One thing I thought was that we have a built in baby sitter, I know she would not say no. At least I will be able to work. But who says she doesn't smoke in the same room as baby or something like that. I have so many things going on in my head, if there was ever a time for a nice bottle of wine and a large box of chocolates ................... oh the thought makes me feel sick, no wonder I'm feeling down!!! lol.

It does feel good to talk to you guys. I can't talk to family as OH is always there and although he gets sick of his mum, it's still his mum and would never want to disrespect either of them.

Time will tell, there will have to be ground rules laid and obeyed, simple as.

Oh I have to stop moaning and cheer up. Let's hope I feel upto choc choc later so I can settle down watching Detective Barnaby do his best ......... oh bugger, it clashes with Bulgarian Pop Idol. oooooooooh the choices here in BG!!!!

aww well at least shes only staying till sunday and its not forever you hope . lol

lets see...... I was feeling crappy, and then yesterday, I suddenly had a major rush of happy hormones !!!! Like a major rush I was gooing all over the forum.... 'feeling the love'......
So.... by my estimation.... if you are lucky enough (or mental enough) to be just like me... then in presicely 4 days time.... you'll be dancing round the garden with a wafty scarf smiling lots.......
.... or not.... but it's a nice thought

Now it's in black and white, you have been quoted!!!!!!!!! Oh I hope you're right. Well you are right about one thing .................. the ma in law will be gone so I will be half way there! Our dog had a bad time a week ago, he got bit by a dog, then he recovered, then I came home and he was limping, wouldn't let me touch his leg. How he's feeling all puppy like again and wants to run round the garden and I don't!!!!!! Bless his little fox looks, he just doesn't understand. So Anne Marie, I hope you're right for my little dogs sake!

Aw he's lush !!! Love my puppy, although she is a bit of a terror still, she's calming down a bit....