Hello, my name is katrinka and I Google (mini rant)

katrinka · Jul 17th, 2009, 14:46 PM

I know, I know, Google is the devil when pg. But everything I remember symptom wise and normal vs. abnormal has left my brain. I can't stop searching things. Then I read sigs where people m/c-ed at 6w, 7w, 20w, etc. and I freak myself out even more.

I was on Wikipedia last night going over miscarriages, missed m/cs, molar pregnancies, ectopic pregnancies, etc and just getting myself more and more freaked out. This s*** keeps me up at night. I can't shut my brain off and end up on 4-5 hours of sleep (like now)! I'm so scared that I am never going to have a child and just m/c for the rest of my life

I'm scared that I'm going to finally be able to see a Dr and find out I had a mm/c. I'm scared that I can't stay positive.

I get cramps and freak out when I feel fluid seep out. I end up going to the bathroom to find regular CF. I'm a freaking basket-case and I don't like it. I'm trying my damnedest to relax and just can't!

Am I just a hormonal loon?

littledancer · Jul 17th, 2009, 14:52 PM

Oh honey, you're definitely not a loon- I think it's very common for women to experience these fears (particularly when they're fueled by lack of sleep, some medical knowledge, previous M/c experiences, and as you say, that darn google!).

I know that it seems so much more common when you've experienced an MC but despite all the scary possibilities, statistics are still in your favour for a healthy pregnancy

I'm sorry you're so stressed, I very much sympathize.

katrinka · Jul 17th, 2009, 14:54 PM

I think I'm just having an emotional break down. I am typing all of this though tears.

Seity · Jul 17th, 2009, 14:58 PM

I must not google the same. I haven't been reading any of the bad stuff. Maybe I just don't click those kinds of links.

Amos2009 · Jul 17th, 2009, 15:04 PM

You are not a loon....there's just SO MUCH information out there and it's hard to not read when something is as important as bringing a life into this world. (At least that's how I am justifying it!) I really have had to stop googling though- so now all my questions and worries are voiced here. (aren't you all glad?!) LOL

to you....odds are our pregnancies will be just fine

DaisyBee · Jul 17th, 2009, 15:13 PM

My advice is that no matter how hard it is to stop googling ---- you must stop! For your sake and your baby's sake! I did the same thing - and was paranoid about everything in the beginning- and the worry and anxiety does not do any of us any good. Odds are in your favor that your baby is healthy and will be fine. Googling and worrying will not make you feel more informed or make you feel better. It will as you are saying - just make you not sleep at night. Yes things can go wrong.... but right now you need to have faith and enjoy your pregnancy! If you ever have to go through a miscarriage or other hard things while being pregnant - you will find a way to get through it and cope - when the time comes. Worrying will not prevent - will only make you miserable.
I found that when I stopped googling and worrying so much - I felt soooo much better and my dh said.... "this is the only time you will be pregnant for the first time" - and he is so right!

Becky_Mummy2B · Jul 17th, 2009, 15:36 PM

Well done for your confession! I'm not proud to say I'm the same! It's addictive. My OH came in the bedroom this morning when I was getting ready for work and caught me reading about m/c and said if he caught me doing that one more time, he'd supervise my internet use... for my own sanity!!! Like Daisybee said, we will only be pregnant with this LO once, and we need to look back on it with fond memories. I was telling someone at work the other day how I felt (like you) - she has a little girl of 5, and said she worried all the way thru hers, and cannot have any more children, and wished she'd not ruined her one and only pregnancy by worrying. Despite all this PMA though, it's bloody hard work to stay cool. I'm like oh my god, I've got a pain in my tummy... oh my god, I've not got a pain in my tummy! We need to support each other, have a PMA and NOT GOOGLE!!! Hope you feel better soon chick, and to everyone else feeling the same... our concern just shows that we will be very caring Mummys! x x x

Lauraaraa · Jul 17th, 2009, 18:18 PM

i am exactly the ame, i google all sorts of things, all sad thngs aswell so really isnt good for me, for anyone really
i think we should jst never google anything about pregnancy again, i find that one link leads to another, which leads to another - which is usually worse!!!
i get myself so worked up and upset, always checking i havnt bled. if i feel something i check. if i aint in the toilet peeing i am checking.

getting serious.

we all just want everything to be ok

this is my 1st pregancy, i am still trying to get over bulimia and i am not helping myself. making myself sad ready the sad stories

** NOTE TO SELF - MUST stop Googling and worrying and be happy!!!**

AimeeM · Jul 19th, 2009, 14:59 PM

You need to go and tell this to your doctor chick, it sounds like depression to me i know as i have been there. There are things you can do about it and you need to as worrying like you are is the worst thing for the baby. Please go see your doc chick you don't have to feel like this xxx

Diana · Jul 19th, 2009, 15:13 PM

I can only offer hugs because I feel like I'm in the same boat as you with loosing sleep, googling, worrying, etc. I hope your first appt gets here soon so you can see everything is okay.

Jul 17th, 2009, 14:46 PM	#1
katrinka Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Modesto, CA USA Posts: 338	Hello, my name is katrinka and I Google (mini rant) I know, I know, Google is the devil when pg. But everything I remember symptom wise and normal vs. abnormal has left my brain. I can't stop searching things. Then I read sigs where people m/c-ed at 6w, 7w, 20w, etc. and I freak myself out even more. I was on Wikipedia last night going over miscarriages, missed m/cs, molar pregnancies, ectopic pregnancies, etc and just getting myself more and more freaked out. This s*** keeps me up at night. I can't shut my brain off and end up on 4-5 hours of sleep (like now)! I'm so scared that I am never going to have a child and just m/c for the rest of my life I'm scared that I'm going to finally be able to see a Dr and find out I had a mm/c. I'm scared that I can't stay positive. I get cramps and freak out when I feel fluid seep out. I end up going to the bathroom to find regular CF. I'm a freaking basket-case and I don't like it. I'm trying my damnedest to relax and just can't! Am I just a hormonal loon?

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Jul 17th, 2009, 14:52 PM	#2
littledancer Pregnant (Expecting) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: May 2009 Posts: 1,691	Oh honey, you're definitely not a loon- I think it's very common for women to experience these fears (particularly when they're fueled by lack of sleep, some medical knowledge, previous M/c experiences, and as you say, that darn google!). I know that it seems so much more common when you've experienced an MC but despite all the scary possibilities, statistics are still in your favour for a healthy pregnancy I'm sorry you're so stressed, I very much sympathize.

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Jul 17th, 2009, 14:54 PM	#3
katrinka Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Modesto, CA USA Posts: 338	I think I'm just having an emotional break down. I am typing all of this though tears.

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Jul 17th, 2009, 14:58 PM	#4
Seity Other BnB Elite Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Ithaca, NY Posts: 12,807	I must not google the same. I haven't been reading any of the bad stuff. Maybe I just don't click those kinds of links.

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Jul 17th, 2009, 15:04 PM	#5
Amos2009 Other BnB Addict Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Alabama US Posts: 3,417	You are not a loon....there's just SO MUCH information out there and it's hard to not read when something is as important as bringing a life into this world. (At least that's how I am justifying it!) I really have had to stop googling though- so now all my questions and worries are voiced here. (aren't you all glad?!) LOL to you....odds are our pregnancies will be just fine

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Jul 17th, 2009, 15:13 PM	#6
DaisyBee Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: MN, U.S. Posts: 5,446	My advice is that no matter how hard it is to stop googling ---- you must stop! For your sake and your baby's sake! I did the same thing - and was paranoid about everything in the beginning- and the worry and anxiety does not do any of us any good. Odds are in your favor that your baby is healthy and will be fine. Googling and worrying will not make you feel more informed or make you feel better. It will as you are saying - just make you not sleep at night. Yes things can go wrong.... but right now you need to have faith and enjoy your pregnancy! If you ever have to go through a miscarriage or other hard things while being pregnant - you will find a way to get through it and cope - when the time comes. Worrying will not prevent - will only make you miserable. I found that when I stopped googling and worrying so much - I felt soooo much better and my dh said.... "this is the only time you will be pregnant for the first time" - and he is so right!

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Jul 17th, 2009, 15:36 PM	#7
Becky_Mummy2B Mum (Mom) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Bolton Posts: 1,224	Well done for your confession! I'm not proud to say I'm the same! It's addictive. My OH came in the bedroom this morning when I was getting ready for work and caught me reading about m/c and said if he caught me doing that one more time, he'd supervise my internet use... for my own sanity!!! Like Daisybee said, we will only be pregnant with this LO once, and we need to look back on it with fond memories. I was telling someone at work the other day how I felt (like you) - she has a little girl of 5, and said she worried all the way thru hers, and cannot have any more children, and wished she'd not ruined her one and only pregnancy by worrying. Despite all this PMA though, it's bloody hard work to stay cool. I'm like oh my god, I've got a pain in my tummy... oh my god, I've not got a pain in my tummy! We need to support each other, have a PMA and NOT GOOGLE!!! Hope you feel better soon chick, and to everyone else feeling the same... our concern just shows that we will be very caring Mummys! x x x

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Jul 17th, 2009, 18:18 PM	#8
Lauraaraa Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: North East Posts: 2,954	i am exactly the ame, i google all sorts of things, all sad thngs aswell so really isnt good for me, for anyone really i think we should jst never google anything about pregnancy again, i find that one link leads to another, which leads to another - which is usually worse!!! i get myself so worked up and upset, always checking i havnt bled. if i feel something i check. if i aint in the toilet peeing i am checking. getting serious. we all just want everything to be ok this is my 1st pregancy, i am still trying to get over bulimia and i am not helping myself. making myself sad ready the sad stories NOTE TO SELF - MUST stop Googling and worrying and be happy!!!

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Jul 19th, 2009, 14:59 PM	#9
AimeeM Other BnB Addict Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Yorkshire Posts: 6,586	You need to go and tell this to your doctor chick, it sounds like depression to me i know as i have been there. There are things you can do about it and you need to as worrying like you are is the worst thing for the baby. Please go see your doc chick you don't have to feel like this xxx

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Jul 19th, 2009, 15:13 PM	#10
Diana Pregnant (Expecting) Active BnB Member Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: New York Posts: 710	I can only offer hugs because I feel like I'm in the same boat as you with loosing sleep, googling, worrying, etc. I hope your first appt gets here soon so you can see everything is okay.

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