This is just to introduce myself to the forum - I am a mother of two ( 7yrl old boy and a 3yr old girl) I live in South Africa.I have been pregnant 4 times and have lost two ( one early weeks and the other on 38weeks-that was my last pregnancy - also the one leading to my divorce two years ago) I have been divorced and about to be engaged with my new partner - we are stayig together against our church belief,(and without them knowing) Our counceling dates were confirmed this morning for our pre engagement sesion.

However we went as a "family" on a berg holiday in Mid September (it was lovely we had snow and fireplace going) Anyway to get back to the point. I went on to the injection three weeks prior to our holiday.

All being fine - I had my cycle after that in October,for a few weeks I have been struggling to eat my red meats and nausea and sore breasts and the lot that goes with being pregnant as most of you know.So the point - being a day late and having all 'the signs' I took a test in my lunch time . . . .
and yup you guest it - - two lines . . .

Here is the thing - one line is dark and the other vague - but there are clearly two lines.So waiting for the weekend to take another ( hoping the second line will dissapear)Sorry to those trying to conceive,but the timing of this is totally out and very unexpected- we were going to get married in the early new year and then MAYBE try for a baby in a years time.

Please understand my histeria as being pregnant again is my worst nightmare come true after loosing my last daughter on 9 months in my pregnancy and loosing my husband of 8 years . . . .

My main reason for joining is that i have no one to talk to as my parents would have a fit and our church will probly reject us (unless we get married ASAP) And my fiance ( to be ) hasnt ever had children of his own so he is histerical as it is and i dont want to upset him more with my thoughts and denial.

So hope to be here a lot
Till Later
BUMP5 - 95% sure

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry your BFP is not what you want but try not to assume that because it ended badly last time it will this time. Every pregnancy and definitely every man is different!

Thanks - Easier said than done - the past screams at me - the whole experiance - and then i still have to deal with all the politics around church and family - It seems a huge mountain at this stage - but i'm sure we will get there , step by step. . . it's very over whelming thou . . .

Hello and welcome to the site, if you are unsure about your :bfp; you can post a photo of it ad put it in the test gallery. CLICK HERE

If it is positive you can head over to the first trimester forum where you'll meet lots of ladies at the same stage as you. CLICK HERE

I'm sorry your Church isn't supportive of you, i'm sure that here at BNB you will find we are a very supportive community, and i hope you make friends here.

Plus, i know lying is wrong but - it's early days, could you not move the wedding forward and give everyone the wrong due dates? Its not as thou you weren't going to get married anyway.

Thanks for some direction - will do so on Monday - i am waiting for the weekend to be 100% positive - then i will post a pic of both tests - LOL - atleast i am a lil calmed down now....

Of course it screams at you, it's not going to be something you can forget. There is a room for miscarriage and loss support http://www.babyandbump.com/miscarriage-support/ where you will be able to find others who have had similar experiences. Perhaps it will help you deal with your past loss. I can't really offer advice about your family or church but sometimes other people just have to deal with it and let you get on with your life.

Thank you .... seems like a dream thou - suppose reality will kick in after the weekend - then some consturctive thinking can take place ( hopefully )

I just wanted to echo what the other ladies said here and give you a big

You have found a great forum and it is full of advice and great ladies xxx

Thanks again to all - I took another test this morning - shows negative - a bit of a relief - but my positive test lurks in the back of my mind - 50 / 50 at this stage - I would be going for a blood test and the GP - will keep you all posted .

And thanks again . . .

Hey there, Welcome to the forum!! The ladies here are so friendly and supportive and also knowledgable.

Sorry to hear about all the things you are going through.
Good luck with everything...