My dilemma is about dopplers. I'm having a worrying time because I really feel so much better now (ms has all but gone really) and yet it is still to early to feel any definite movements (not that I haven't been concentrating hard everyday).
So - I'm worried. I've had two losses in the past and while that lends itself to extra anxiety, I also feel 'what will be will be'. Any way I am trying to decide whether to get a doppler or not. Part of me thinks it will be reassuring if I can find an HB but most of me thinks it might just worry me more - not just because if I can't find the HB I will panic, but because I researched a lot about heart rates after my first loss, and so now I know just finding a heart rate alone will not completely reassure me, especially if I notice any tachycardia etc.
However, because I live in the US and all my medical care is basically managed by the insurance company, any extra visits other than the norm or what the doctor feels necessary are really expensive. I could probably buy a doppler for less than what two visits would cost me in co-payments and certainly for less than a scan. So for that reason I wonder if it might be worth getting a doppler because then if i DID feel something was needing to be checked out - I could tell the doctor and get the approval for a visit.???
As you can probably tell I've got myself in a right headspace about this. I don't really want to be 'playing at being my own doctor' but I'm finding it hard to get through the weeks between appointments.
any advice or thoughts would be much appreciated.
