
i can relate, its a horrible feeling.
I used to be like that, i moved away from home 10 years ago.
Up untill last year i had one best friend, we did everything together, but then things happened and we fell out.
Now id rather not have anyone close to me, that way i cant get hurt.
Im happy with it just being me and Jase, this year at college i met a girl and shes really trying and making the effort to be friends, invited me over all the time and texts. Altho i like the idea to have another close friend, i just cant bring myself to do it and i feel bad for keep making excuses why i cant go round.
x