Hi

Ive not been on for a while and apologise as ive not yet posted my birth story or pics (which i will do shortly).

However I have been getting really low and crying most days over nothing or really stupid things.

Im brestfeeding, which i am finding to be a tough rollercoaster or emotions plus the emotions or becoming a mum for the first time.

Although the midwives, family, friends etc tell me im doing really well, i cant help but get myself into a state when holly is unsettled. I feel like im doing a crap job and find the demands of brestfeeding so so hard.

I get frustrated with Holly and then i get this wave of guilt afterwards, for feeling this way and burst into tears. And get scared of becoming depressed and letting her down

I just feel a little isolated as not been going out much as she is only 9 days old and feel like i dont get anytime to myself.

I know that a baby changes your life and comes first, but i never realised how hard it can be emotionally.

Im just desporate to feel the joy and happiness i should be feeling.

Is this normal and anyone else experienced this?

I just need some words of comfort.

oh hun you poor thing. im sure your doing a great job as a mum. it is tough hun and i have days where i cry over the stupidest of things. especially the last few days. today i barely burnt my finger with hot water and burst into tears i think its just normal hun. maybe you should talk to your doctor though and let them know how your feeling. i hope your ok hun

I'm not experiencing this like you are but I am still emotional. More emotional than when i was pregnant. I've wanted to cry because Kiara was unsettled and I wasn't getting much help from OH cause he couldn't get out of bed I feel much better during the day though when Kiara is smiling at me
Just think how much you love Holly Your bound to get at least a little frustrated I think its normal
Hope you feel better soon xxx

Are you both breast feeding?

I don't breastfeed and I got the baby blues. You just need to be careful and make sure it is just the baby blues and not post-natal depression (which is common and can be treated!) As for getting frustrated, it happens to us all, even know there are days that I get incredibly frustrated with Hannah (although it's gotten better) and want to throw in the towel. You just persevere through them. It does get better!

i bottle feed hun. i tried BF but only lasted 2 days. it was too sore and Jack wasn't getting enough.

I have baby blues too and everyone keeps telling me its normal.

Rihanna is only 5 days old and I just burst into tears for no reason.... and i hate to see her distressed... she as wind xxx

claire - what you wrote ? could've been me mate, you described how i felt to a t and worse...

it gets better, for me it was slow though. talk to people... x

i was just like that whrn chloe was around 2 weeks. i stopped bf then and it helped my mood, but that may not be the case for you. ask for help when you need it and speak to hv or gp if it gets worse. ie feeling unwell, feeling negative etc

i felt like this too. i was so exhausted as my baby never seemed to sleep at all (has got better). i started to wish i never had him i felt so much guilt for feeling like that but that is what tiredness and isolation can do to you. to be honest, i think i was on the verge of PND if his sleeping hadn't improved.

now he is sleeping better and i am getting out a lot more with him. it gets so much easier as they get older (ali is 2 months this sunday)! he is less clingy and i can actually go for a shower and leave him in his moses basket happily kicking his little legs whereas in the early days he was permanently glued to me!!!

i have accepted the dramatic changes to my life. i struggled to adjust badly....i hope you feel better soon hun.



Christine
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