For a few weeks i've been feeling really low, i could be so happy one minute an the next minute i would be crying my eyes out for no reason at all.
Things are beginning to take their toll on me, the lack of sleep, the constant feeding an tears. I love Jayden more than anything on this earth an i love our mummy + son moments like our cuddles an when he smiles at me an just the way he is progressing every day.
My family have no faith in my ability to do this. I'll be starting college on the 8th of September full time and no one thinks i will be able to cope with looking after Jayden an being in college. I need/want to do this though an even if it kills me i WILL make something of myself, i want to make J proud of me and give him the best possible future.
About 2 weeks ago my mum + my auntie Paula made me go an stay in Jayden's daddy's for the weekend because they were fed up with me saying i wasn't coping an stuff and they needed a break from me, my auntie said if i don't get my act together she will take J from me Am i out of order to argue back with them? They tell me i won't cope going to college, which in my eyes is getting my life together and then they tell me to get a grip.

Sorry for the rant girlies xxx

They should know that having a baby does take it's toll and your hormones are all over the place. That does not make you an incompetent mother in the least. Honestly I do think it would probably be a good thing to seek help, to rule out PND because it can be quite severe but also so you have someone to talk too about what you are going through.

It definitely sounds as if you could do with getting some help, maybe see your GP/health visitor and maybe they can put you onto a counsellor to discuss things with?

I think your family sound totally insensitive and need to get a grip themselves!

Ignore it and im sure you will be fine, I get down days even now and Bethanie is almost 2! and good luck at college, im sure you will do great.

Definately go see your doctor. PND so brutal to go through, and so easily treated. I'm really sorry to hear about the lack of support from your family. Get help from whatever avenues you can!

It is true that having a baby can take a big toll on you. The sleepless nights, etc.

However, I am not in agreement with the way your family is acting. They should be giving credit where credit is due and uplifting you to achieve what you want to achieve.

Honestly, I also do think that you should see your doctor to rule out PND or treat as necessary if you do have it.

Sorry your family is not supporting you hun. What is wrong with going to stay at Jaydens daddy's every once in awhile? Is he willing to help you out at all? Even if you and him are not "together" as long as your civil together and he is willing to help you out with Jayden I think that is a wonderful chance.

When you have a baby, take any help you can. Especially if you are working or going to school. I feel bad for some people who read on here that they are with their babies 24/7... To me, it just is not realistic... Everyone could use help with a baby.

I agree, you should go see a doctor about this too...

Good luck!

You might find that going to college will do your emotional well being a load of good and you will find it easy to cope. Its really hard to be around a baby 24/7 and I find even though I miss my son a lot, I actually enjoy being at work, using my brain, being around other people and also getting a break from him (doesn't mean I'm a bad mom). When I get home I'm so excited to see him and love every minute I spend with him even if he is crying. It will make you feel a bit more normal to go to college and be around people your own age.

If your baby is healthy and happy then your family have no right to say they will take him away from you.

Thank you for all your replies girls.
Things just seem so hard right now, i guess i didn't realize how much until i lost Lewie. I have my 6week check on Thursday so will try an explain how am feeling to the doctors.

Ryder - I just don't get on with Adam, the only reason i am being civil with him is so Jayden knows who his daddy is, i don't want to take that right away from him, he deserves to have that bond with his daddy. Don't get me wrong Adam is a great dad, i just can't see e getting on with him right now he has hurt me too much.

Ratty - I am looking forward to going to college but i am so scared about leaving J in nursery this young, i feel like am pushing him away from me yet i know i need to do this for mine + J's future.

xxx

I think its wonderful that you are going to college. It will be rough. but you can do it. You are thinking about the future. When others, like your family cannot encourage you, remember you can always encourage yourself, and know deep down that only you can make the best decisions for yourself.