Mine was really horrible. I was in labour 17 hours, i got to 10cm was told to push but i nothing was happening, baby was back to back and stuck under my pubic bone. after 4 hours of pushing he hadnt moved and was starting to distress. then my midwife and the head midwife decided to have a row over whether to go for a csection, but head won and she used forceps. however when she did the episotomy she cut me too much but i wasnt aware of this until a long time after. when she was pulling him with the forceps she was pulling so hard she had her foot on the end of my bed and i was sliding down it - my mum and oh had to hold me up. THE worst, most painful feeling in my entire life and i will never ever get that out of my head. i generally thought that me and him were going to die - the force she had to use i couldnt see how his head could take it, i was hysterical and screaming so much my mum (who was a nurse and can stand any amount of gore/trauma) had to go out of the room for 5 minutes coz she couldnt stand it. but thank god he was fine apart from a very bruised head and a small cut.

because of the cut i bled massively, at one point i was laying down and my oh said he could see blood pouring through the bed and rushed to get the midwifes. iwas in and out of conciousness, so much so i only really remember him being put on my chest then thats it until about 4/5 hours later. they were so concerned about me they didnt even check or weigh archie til 3 hours after!!

i ended up staying in hospital for 2 weeks and had 4 blood transfusions as my blood count had halved, and then i got an infection in my stitches. then to top it off when i went for my 6 week check, the doc told me she had stitched one wrong my skin had healed over it but reacted badly to it and its got to be re-cut and re-stitched!!!

when i think about the whole thing it makes me so upset. the day my son was born and i dont even want to remember it but ive been told that if i have another baby (and thats a big IF) then i would definitely be allowed a c-section. but to be honest as much as i love archie and he is the single best thing in my world, its really quite traumatised me that i dont think i want anymore!