I just want to feel better, I'm so sad, I can't stop crying and I feel like I can't talk to anyone about this because I feel like they might feel as though I should be over this. I really don't want to cry anymore. I just want to be completely numb.

honey -- it takes however long it takes, please don't be hard on yourself!

I had an mc in August 2009 and even by that Christmas, was still pretty bad. I started to see a counsellor, which really helped, but it took a good year for the 'raw emotion' to subside. You will feel better, but it will take some time!

best wishes

My first mc was in 2007 so a long time ago, while I no longer cry about it, I still think about the what ifs.

This section of B&B is here for a reason, everyone on here understands what you have been through and what your feeling. You can write what you need to on here and we will help you through it.

I know exactly how you are feeling. I had MMC at 10 weeks in July 2009, worst thing I have ever experienced. I was pregant again in Sept 2009 and had little boy May 2010. However, I never forgot the one I lost and thought about it and cried the anniversary of it happening. However, for me getting pregnant again helped the healing process.
However last week at 17 weeks I had another MMC (14 weeks gestation, despite healthy scan at 13 weeks)
I am totally devasted and feel like curling up in a ball and crying for ever, but i have 3 other children so some how have to keep going.
I am desperate to try again as soon as possible, but baby number was wasn`t planned and i don`t think husband wants to try again, this is killing me. My little one was born a week ago today and we have cremation on monday and are burying ashes on tuesday. Once this is done hopefully we can look forward, but i desperately want to try again as for me this is the only way I think I will ever be happy again.
I still think of my first one now, nothing was done for this one as it was only 8 weeks gestation, however during our service on monday (only me and husband going) the hospital chaplain who is doing the service is going to mention our other little angel.
Everything happens for a reason, I know this to be true, but so difficult to understand at this time. So I know exactly how you feel as I feel exactly the same way.
i found this poem, it makes me cry uncontrollably every time I read it, but i feel the words are very nice,(we are having this read at our little ones service on monday)
1. An Angel Never Dies
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.

i hope this helps. XX

I know exactly how you are feeling. I had MMC at 10 weeks in July 2009, worst thing I have ever experienced. I was pregant again in Sept 2009 and had little boy May 2010. However, I never forgot the one I lost and thought about it and cried the anniversary of it happening. However, for me getting pregnant again helped the healing process.
However last week at 17 weeks I had another MMC (14 weeks gestation, despite healthy scan at 13 weeks)
I am totally devasted and feel like curling up in a ball and crying for ever, but i have 3 other children so some how have to keep going.
I am desperate to try again as soon as possible, but baby number 4 wasn`t planned and i don`t think husband wants to try again, this is killing me. My little one was born a week ago today and we have cremation on monday and are burying ashes on tuesday. Once this is done hopefully we can look forward, but i desperately want to try again as for me this is the only way I think I will ever be happy again.
I still think of my first one now, nothing was done for this one as it was only 8 weeks gestation, however during our service on monday (only me and husband going) the hospital chaplain who is doing the service is going to mention our other little angel.
Everything happens for a reason, I know this to be true, but so difficult to understand at this time. So I know exactly how you feel as I feel exactly the same way.
i found this poem, it makes me cry uncontrollably every time I read it, but i feel the words are very nice,(we are having this read at our little ones service on monday)
1. An Angel Never Dies
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.

i hope this helps. XX

Thank so much.

I am really glad that I found this site.

I am so sorry for your loss, no one deserves to go through what you have been through. I'm so sorry, Thank you so much for your words.

in tears, I should have an almost two year old running around looking forward to meeting their little brother next month!

am so sorry for all of our losses....

best wishes

Thank you and I am really happy for you.