Trinity is right babe, you don't have to apologise for your feelings!!!
If you need to scream, cry and stamp your feet you should
Where OH is concerned mine was exactly the same, he didn't want to talk about it, it was like he though he had to stay strong for me
I know it doesn't help for people to say it happened for a reason, it took me ages to even start thinking that way.
Do you not have any friends or family near that you could talk to?
I needed to let it out and i think you do too, don't bottle it all up as that wil make the feelings worse in the long run
