Hi Becky and welcome
I think i can only really repeat what Wobbles has said, we all deal with things differently, some shout and scream and some keep it all in
I think whichever way you choose to come to terms with your loss you definitely need support around you, just to have a good cry on their shoulders
Some people try straightaway to TTC others like me wait a couple of years
You need time to adjust and i know it won't feel like it now but you do come to terms and learn to carry on
Just remember a lot of us on here have gone through what you are going through now and will gladly give you any support you need
