Litol_x_Me

So 2 years past may i suffered a mc, And i have never grieved for my baby, I have only told my OH the full story of my last mc and it still haunts me so i am hoping by sharing it on here i can finally let go of the anger...

I was 12 weeks and felt totally fine until i woke up in the morning of may2nd and had some blood in my pants, So i went up too the maternity unit and they examined me and told me i had a small lasiration on my cervix and not too worry and just too go home too which i did. Later that day i had bad bad cramps and by night time i had a period like flow of blood so i called an ambulance and they came too my door told me too get up and get down stairs (in a very cheeky way) then i got too the top of my stairs (concrete ones in a close, i was 4 levels up) and i slipped on something and fell down the stairs on my back. I started screaming in agaony and too my horror my ex OH laughed at me along with the paramedics and i had too help myself up!!! I get too maternity unit and they stick me in a side room for an hour and only came in when i needed the toilet and stood up and gushed a puddle of blood on the floor. My ex OH then ran out of the room and disapeared for ages while they prodded at me down there ect. They then stick me on a ward full of new mums the joys eh!!. Then my OH told me he would wait in reception as he wasnt aloud in then too my horror i stood at my window and watched the ******* go home! i later found out he went home and went for a bath then too bed! So sat in my room crying my eyes out i noticed my iv drip was empty and my blood was starting too go up the tube so i called for someone and they changed it 10 mins later! I then lay in bed soaked in blood cause no-one came too see too me. And i told them i am bleeding too much! only when i stood up and let them see the blood run out of me did they then rush me into another room and start cutting at something inside me! (be aware that yes i knew i was mc but no-one had confirmed this too me yet!) Then i got told i was loosing alot of blood and was rushed too theatre. nurses then told me it took then half an hour too get hold of my ex on the phone too get him too come up. I then come round from theatre and get told too eat the toast they had given me and drink the tea too too which when they walked out the room my ex happily ate it and never left me any! quoting "thank god i was starving!" as he ate away! Then they sent me home an hour later and i told them i lived 2 miles away and had no money for a taxi too which they replied "well you will have too walk then" I was so discusted by this and it has mentally scared me tooo shreds! the hospital was the royal alexandra in paisley. I just cant seem too forget it and i cannot for one seem too let go of all the anger inside me!

Sorry for the big essay, I pray too god none of you have or ever have too go threw what i did that day xxxxx

mBLACK

I'm so so sorry that all happened to you! Your ex OH was a D*CK FACE!.. I'm sorry, I haven't even got the words to help how you must have felt.

Litol_x_Me

just knowing people are reading and listening is enough for me stupidly enough i didnt leave him till 3 weeks after the mc x

Abbys_Mummy

Oh hun this had me in tears didn`t want to read and run so i thought i would just say i`m so so sorry you had to go through that awfull experience

andi01

Oh My Gosh; I am Speechless;
I'm so sorry you had to go through that alone..
Your one Tough Cookie!

jacky24

Im sorry you had to experience that hun.
Sometimes things happen wich is out of our control, we will just say thank god you are with us all today and strong enough to look past the bad an work toward the good.

oOKayOo

sam's mum

So sorry you had to go through such a horrible experience x

shmoo75

You poor thing hun. What an awful experiance. I am glad you are with us today, that you had the strength to leave that b*****d of an ex OH and, you have finally meet someone who is worthy of you. Sending and hoping all goes well this time for you.

Litol_x_Me

My extended thanks too everyone who has taken time too read this and for there comments they have given me comfort. I guess i got threw it by never grieving and putting it too the back of my head as if it didnt happen, I just wish it went normally and that i had that chance too grieve for my baby xx