Mynxie

I'm so sorry to learn of your loss huni I know that nothing I can say will make you feel any better, but I'm here, as are many of the others, if you want to chat x

tansey

Hoping you are ok hun. So sorry to hear what happened! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

superp123

Oh boy, what a long seven days this has been. I'm emotionaly and physically retarded at this point. I haven't cried even since the other day, when I posted. I just can't, I know I need to but I can't. I have a UTI, and another sinus infection(thank you alergies) I've been poked, proded, tested and ultrasounded. I'm on antibodies, and pain killers for the past 24 hours. Still no mc action going on here, just bleeding with horrible cramping. I know this is going to sound horrid, but I need to get the f*ck on with it already!!! So called the nurse today, as directed, since still nothing. I go in tomorrow am for a D&C. I'm terrified. I'm one of those who doesn't much care for hospitals anyway, I don't like knowing the details about stuff like this, and I hate blood. Don't tell me, ignorance is bliss. I'm so squeemish. I know I'm going to be fine, but still nervous.
On top of it, everyone keeps saying, "How are you feeling hun?" Do they really want to know how I'm feeling? I know my people who love me do, but the people who don't really even know me... I can't take it. The next one is going to hear the truth. The truth is, I'd rather be somebody else right now. I can't stand to be in my own skin and I don't know if I'm coming or going. Worst of all I don't know how to feel beter. Usually, I can look at myself and say, "girl go get your hair done, you'll feel beter..." but this, I don't think a haircut is going to work. I need some serious therapy people. I would love to excersise my problems away, which I find normaly works... But as things are I can't really get on with that can I? Oi!!! Which brings me back to, I just need the next step to be done so I can cope and move on. I feel like I'm stuck right now. Emotionaly constipated. Does that make sense?
Oh, I love these boards, I feel beter already. Thanks for reading my rant. I hope you all are doing well, or as well as can be expected.
Lots of
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trickysgurl

I am sooo sorry i kno the feeling.. I have had 2 mcs since ive been tryin to have a lil 1 and b4 i started tryin i had 2.. One at 18 and 22 and the waiting is the worst.. It gets so frustrating that i cant do a simple thing that women are made to do but all of us have to keep our heads up.. Making it through the night is the only way to see the light of day.. I kno thats corny but its the truth. I hope things get better for u and im gonna have u on my mind. If u ever need to talk im here.

Nic

Hiya, I was having a look for you last week and couldn't find you! I looked in your two journals and the wtt section. I never gave it a thought to look in here. But it seems obvious now I'm going through a similar hell.

I know you are going to get through this. I don't know how, but you are strong and you'll do it for the boys if nothing else because from 'knowing' you in an online sense I think that's the kind of person you are.

I can't do much but offer sympathy and hugs and let you know you are in my thoughts.

tansey

I hope after tomorrow things start to move on for you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

NikiJJones

Will be thinking of you. You have already been so brave. Wish I could be there to give you a big hug.
xxxx

superp123

So everything went well today or so they tell me. I'm feeling a bit high and a little crampy still but otherwise fine. My emotional constipation has been relieved, immediately after waking up, the flood gates opened. I can't sit long and ramble but I will say I'm dealing. I'm feeling very greatful for my husband at the moment. He cries with me and worries with me, and always picks me up when I fall. I'm so thankful to God that I have him always, but times like these when the light hits him just right, I think, "I'm so lucky."
Lots of hugs girls.
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NikiJJones

Sending you more .
Glad your hubby is such a star for you.
xxxx

tansey

Glad you are feeling a bit better and you have a lovely hubby! xx