sometimes i just feel empty

when i really miss my 3 little ones

and then i wonder if i can really carry on this journey thinking that there may be nothing but heartache

ah just having one of those moments where it all gets to me

*big sigh*

I don't understand how you feel it is impossible for me to do that. It must be awful losing 3 children. I don't really know your story as I don't really know you. But, losing 3 children must be the worst thing you can go through and I think you should allow yourself to have a moment like this. You are going to feel the hurt and pain. This is something I doubt you will ever get over although you will in time come to terms with it. I can empathise when you say you wonder if you can really carry on this journey, but you do need to draw on the strength that you have used this far. You have come a long way and are doing really well and you need to remember that you have got the strength inside to carry on. You will have times like this when you feel empty and you feel like you cannot go on. I don't know if you believe in God after all you have gone through if you do you can draw on that strength also. But, you have got the strength because you have come this far and have done so well. Don't be so hard on yourself for feeling low it happens to the best of us even those who haven't been what you have been through.

I know what you mean i keep thinkin of my little goals i had set, 12wk scan,telling everyone but it never happen lost lil one at 6.5 wks, heartbreaking is the only word.....thinking of you and try to stay strong sweetie you must besuch a brave lady having one mc has nearly destroyed me. Look after yourself pm me if you ever need a chat xxxxx

Ive lost 1 and it was awful so i cant imagine how u feel. R the hospital doing any tests?

no, not yet, though in all truth i suspect I know why i keep MCing. and i can't do a bloody thing about it but of course, there's never been any medical research done on my theory so we'll never know

Aww Mynxie, you are so strong to keep trying. So many people would have given up if they had been through your heartbreak.

Just try to remember that you do hear miracle stories all the time, and I'm hoping and praying that yours will be one I hear about soon.

I think things just hit home a little bit, when I found out unexpectedy that someone I used to know was pregnant. Daft I know, but I guess when you're not expecting it, although you're happy for people (genuinely happy) it brings it home sometimes and the thoughts that you have been avoiding pounce on you. It's not being jealous or anything, cause it's not that, it's just feelings that I lock away sometimes escape...

exactly how i feel.Its not jealousy i cant describe it Hope you feel better soon hun xxxxx

I'm so sorry you've been through such an awful time. I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it must be for you. All I know is that you hear stories all the time of events happening against the odds. You must have so much inner strength to get this far and I'm sure you can use that in the future to keep on the journey.

All I can offer are my thoughts and xx