im so sorry for your loss

Hi everyone

I had quite a good day yesterday & managed to get through the whole day without crying so I guess things must be getting better.

I just wanna get tomorrow over with as it's Sophies funeral

Can't believe how badly I wanna be pregnant again... when I discussed it with my consultant I told him I'd wait for her post mortem results (which can take up to 12 weeks) before trying again, but I'm just thinking about it constantly & worrying that I may not get pregnant straight away anyway.

Does anyone know if there's any medical reason why I shouldn't start trying now?

Would my baby be more at risk if I did get pregnant straight away??


I know I can never replace Sophie but I'm so desperate to be a mother

Love Nicky xx

Nicky as you know i had a similar experience to you and i can really understand the need to be pregnant again the empty feeling and just not feeling quite complete. Well my doctor advised to wait till i'd had my first af before trying which took 2 months to come and i had a really heavy period. I was anxious about my fertitly following the birth despite the doctor and consultant assuring me my partner and i were healthy and fertitle. My consultant advised to bonk every third day of you complete cycle and it worked for us and i cant tell you how it feels to be pregnant again. I really wanted to b pregnant by hopes due date, and it didnt take away the pain of the day just made us appreciate baby Hope and the little bean growing inside me.

Your in my thoughts hun.xxx

I don't know about how soon you should wait... or how much of a risk there is if you don't - I'd recomend asking your doctor specifically about the risks involved (if there are any!) so you get the exact answers you are looking for.

Just wanted to say, your feeling of loss and emptiness is understandable as is your overwhelming desire to be a mother...

No doubt you will make a great one and your time will come soon... Best of luck in your next pregnancy - here's crossing everything that it won't take long and that things go as smoothly as poss. Take care x

God bless your beautiful little one Sophie.

Words cannot express how sorry I am for you hun,

Shim,
xxx

Hi

Hope today is not too painful for you, thinking of you xx

lots of hugs for today....

Thanks girls

The funeral was a lovely service but the sight of her litle white coffin was too much for me & Sean.

I'm glad plenty of people took the time & effort to come to say goodbye to her although I didn't really acknowledge them at the time... I sent them all a txt apologising for not being up to speaking to them but thanking them for coming as soon as I was safely home. It just felt too overwhelming at the cemetery & I seem to be having problems with anxiety in public situations at the moment.

I'm sure things will start to improve now that she's been laid to rest as I've had the worry of her funeral hanging over me for almost 2 weeks now.

I'm planning on speaking to my consultant on wednesday to ask if it's medically OK for me & Sean to start trying for another baby straight away, so fingers crossed he'll give us the green light.

xx

Well done - You're coping really well... I'm sure it must just have been so difficult

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God bless little Sophie - may she rest in peace

So sorry too hear of your loss Nicky. I can't imagine the pain that must have been for you. Keep your chin up hun, my thoughts are with you and your family. x