Hello ladies, i feel ready to post on here properly so, here goes.
Thursday morning i had my booking in visit with my midwife and all was well she took bloods and asked lots and lots of questions!!
Got home from the midwife and popped to the toilet before going out with my little girl and there was blood when i wiped. So i phoned the doctors who were closed as they only open mornings on a thursday! So i phoned the early pregnancy assesment clinic, which i am very familier with having 2 previous miscarriages. They told me to 'put my feet up' 'have a rest!!' and phone the doctors in the morning as i needed a GP referal to see them!!!! Phoned my big sister and she said, No way i am not having that and rushed round to take me to A and E!
Very quickly was processed through A and E and was transfered up to Early Pregnancy and the scanned me and as soon as she said 'sweetheart i just need to do an internal scan for a better look' i just knew. She then said right i am just going to be quiet for a few seconds while i check everything. Then the room span and she said i am so very very sorry, the baby is measuring around 8 weeks 5 days but the heart has stopped beating.
So very very sad and am fine as long as i keep busy but i cannot stop blaming myself as this is my 3rd miscarriage. Booked in for a D and C on monday. But have just passed the baby so i think they might just scan to check everything is ok.
The hospital said they cant do and investigation into possible problems (causes of miscarriage) untill i have 3 miscarriages in a row, i have miscarriage, then my beautiful daughter then 2 miscarriages. So i am left frightened beyond belief about getting pregnant again and at this moment in time i just want to not think about that.
This helped so so much to write it down it has given me a quiet calmness.
x x x
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I too have felt the pain of miscarriage. It was something I never worried about when carrying our daughters. But after having our son I sadly then went on to have two miscarriages one after the other and was scared about ttc again. I fell pregnant immediately following the second miscarriage and went on to have a healthy baby son. We have decided to ttc but I sadly miscarried last month. I think after any loss it makes you more scared about the journey again but I am sure you will be blessed with a bundle to hold in your arms and not just have in your heart. Try to not let the upset and disappointment put you off ttc again when your feeling stronger. Sending you big hugs. I am so scared about us ttc again but we want another baby so much that I am trying to be brave and not let the fear stop us fulfilling our dream.
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The following user says 'Thanks' to Tracey2008 for this post:
Just wanted to give you a hug and say you sound amazing and so strong. Im sure you will succeed in the end, sweetie, and finally have the babe you so deserve!
*hugs* xxx
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The following user says 'Thanks' to Omi for this post:
Know how scarey it can be to try again (had 6 miscs before we were blessed with first daughter) but sometimes it just feels right to try again. Take care of yourself, a good cry or rant always helped me.
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The following user says 'Thanks' to coccyx for this post:
Vivanco, im feeling ur pain right now too as I went for a emergancy scan on thurs because the same as u i had blood when i wiped..
As i had a missed miscarriage in Nov they were great about me being seen that aft. The doc was laughing with me and telling me i was a worrier until i had my early scan and baby hadnt grown since my last scan 2 weeks before and this time the baby heartbeat wasnt there..
I naturally miscarried at home yesterday and I too think I passed the baby (i saw babys sac)
Im numb, Im broken im scared whay its happened again..
Have to be rescanned tomorrow mmm thats going to be nice.
I just want you to know ur not alone, im in the same boat and im sending u big hugs cuz i know right now u need them and that not everyone will understand u but i do..
Take care babes
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